I lost my boyfriend and best friend of 10 years on 31st January, and I just can’t stop crying. The saddest memory I have of him is when I had my last hospital virtual visit and he was just laying there with his mouth wide open and all the tubes supporting him. I can’t get that sight out of my mind.
I dreamt of him yesterday and I was talking to him saying "you can’t hear me. He replied “I can” and he stroked my face. It was a nice dream, but it hurts so much.
Every time the phone rings I’m wishing it was him phoning me. I miss the texts and “I love you” messages. How am I going to cope?
I feel so alone, and when anyone asks me how am it just makes me feel worse.
I have my daughter’s shoulder to cry on, but I feel I am hurting her watching me cry My only good friends I have live so far away and I can’t see them. All I do is cry on the phone.
Is there an end to this grief?