Of course it does it’s always a harder time when lost loved ones, it’s the first Xmas without my brother then mams 2 year 28th December, you just have to push yourself that little bit harder this time of year
Went to see mum on the 15th December it was her birthday. Discovered parking ticket by Nottingham City Mafia aka council. Did appeal obviously the crooks repelled that so contacted my housing association about the matter
They are criminal these councils, our council in Durham isn’t much better either.
They are, they making money out of us. I hate it, it’s a very nasty world!
Life’s very depressing these days, I guess we all thought a change of government would change that, we was wrong. can’t stand these dark nights.
Yeah it is there’s too many changes happening and not for the best, I often think if my mam & dad were alive they’d not like this country anymore, and that’s change in two years. I dread my grandchildren growing up. I knew labour would be even worse than tories. Won’t talk politics though it’s a touchy subject especially when we have different views
Yea can’t defend Labour at the moment so I won’t, easier. I been out back in Thalidomide whilst going through my 5th cycle of chemo treatment.
Could say the same about my mum, I’m convinced mum’s in a better place. Breaks your heart doesn’t it when you think how innocent times were when we were kids. What I would give to go back to those days. I wouldn’t say mum was well off, she wasn’t and a single parent bringing me up. But I had plenty of love.
Thank You Mag, you heard anything from Malcolm ? I know she going through a tough time with her sister, In some ways we now got something in common ie Maggie’s. Find out the other day a friends dad has developed cancer and needs surgery. I just started a 5yh cycle of chemo and back on Thalidomide.
Sounds grim not the best end to the year, hopefully next year is better for you, I just don’t want to lose anyone else ! It’s been one after the other these last two years, I’d like good 2025, but nothing surprises me anymore.
My mam n dad wouldn’t come back here if they had the choice that’s a fact, it’s all over too so much hate in the world
Just a selfish greedy world with idiots in it.
Yeah haha, your spot on
Hi Keith, yes have heard a bit from Malcolm. Her sister hasn’t been well but seems to be in good hands. You have both had very tough years and we are all still struggling with the losses of our loved ones. We have to hope that 2025 will put us all on a better path and that we can all draw support from each other. Hope you are coping ok with your treatment.
Hi Mag
How are you ? sometimes you don’t know if people are visiting here or not when it goes quiet. I kind of miss Malcolm on here as she replied regularly. But I realize she has a lot of things going on in her life which takes priority. I started my 5th cycle of Chemo on Friday just gone, the usual injections 2x Valcade and Dara I think. I’m used to this now as I’ve done 4 cycles, 1 cycle = 1 month. I’m due back in hospital on the 27th for re dressing of Hickman line and injections. Back in on the 30th appointment with my doctor. No doubt the Stem Cell Transplant will come up again during the appointment. But I lost a lot of my year to the hospital, so I’m thinking I need to do this Stem Cell Transplant to regain my life. There’s obviously risk to life involved with the procedure like most hospital procedures. I was going up to see mum and nannar today but ran out of time. ASDA was a nightmare today so busy was unreal. I bought flowers so I’m now going to have to do it tomorrow now. I watched Match Of The Day last night and the film Eddie the Eagle followed, my mum liked the cinema and was a Cineworld member we both were I think. I just recently rejoined, the film resparked memories for me. I told mum to go to see it when it came out, mum wasn’t keen on it to start with, but I kept telling her it was a good film and based on a true story. Well like every Sunday she went out to the cinema, I did ask her what she was going to see and mum didn’t know at the time. Mum came home at 8 to 9 her normal time. I asked her what she went to see and she told me Eddie The Eagle. Mum said she didn’t think she like it, but she really enjoyed it. So I watched it last night whilst the tears came free flowing. Even today as I type this the tears are flowing again. It’s just the content of the film that his mum supports and never gives up on Eddies dreams to be an Olympian, so it evoked strong emotions in me and still does. But it is a really nice heart warming film as he treated as the under dog in the film and is snubbed by the Great Britain Olympic Team. Snobbery and just because he doesn’t fit into the normal type of athlete. So you feel for him during the film because he wants to compete so much. Say hello to Malcolm for me!
I was thinking maybe people that die are the lucky ones has they escape today’s world. Where ever our loved ones go to, it can’t be any worse then today’s world. It’s definitely getting worse you can see and feel it. It started before Labour got into power though. It goes back to the last days of Labour under Tony Blaire.
I noticed recently I get out of breath or feel a little exhausted at the slightest thing. Not sure if that’s the treatment or not ! stupid ASDA woman all my items had been scanned earlier but was struggling with my card self service check out. As I’m trying to do this, another woman putting my things into a trolley with a load of other things. I managed to get most of my stuff back but couldn’t find the oven cleaner I paid for. So I’ve had to run out and get some more, lucky for me I find a place that had some.
Hi Keith, sorry I’ve not been on here lately. My sister had another major operation and was told that if everything came back negative that would be it. All tests came back negative but they then decided that they want to do five cycles of chemotherapy which was a shock. My depression kicked in and I’ve not really felt like chatting. I’ve been in bed yesterday and today with the flu so I am feeling pretty rough, but better today than yesterday.
I’m glad you are going to go ahead with the stem cell transplant, like my cancer specialist at Maggie’s told me about my sister’s chemo: they get one shot to cure cancer.
I know the world isn’t the best place but you really need to stop thinking about how bad the world is. Look for the good instead, the treatment is giving you a second chance of life, do something positive with it. The focus too much on the negative, it’s not good for you. I know you can’t do much at the moment because of your treatment but think of something you would like to do when you are in remission and focus on that. I am focusing on going to university next year, it’s the one positive thing I’ve had to hold on to lately and it’s kept me going
It’s good to hear from you Malcolm my cancer most likely very different to your sisters. Like most people I didn’t know too much about cancer until I was diagnosed with it. I think Myeloma a slow cancer though and I have age on my side. A lot of other Myeloma patients are a lot older than me and can’t have the Stem Cell Transplant because of their age. Myeloma is probably more associated with older people. My doctor calls me one of her younguns that’s her words not mine. I think she fairly confident I can get through the Stem Cell Transplant without too many complications. I fully understand how you feel regards your sister cancer is exhausting. To be honest I don’t know if the hospitals use the same injections for all cancer ? Dara and Valcade is it ? that’s what I been having but it could be completely different with your sister ? it takes a lot of learning and understanding and a awful lot of patience too. It’s a whole work out mentally and physically as well. I’m sure Maggie’s will help you as much as they can. There’s an ex Myeloma nurse at my Maggie’s I’ve had couple sessions with her. She awfully nice they all are, it’s just getting past the shock of cancer. But I do need to re claim my life back or you become a prisoner to the hospital and that’s not good either
Each cancer gets treated with a different regime as they respond differently, my sister will have to have a combination of an infusion and tablets. My mum had blood cancer like you but because it was a different type she had injections. With cancer they have to look at the genetics of the disease to determine what form of treatment it will respond to. My mum was 70 when she was diagnosed so she wouldn’t have been able to have a stem cell transplant as it would have been too gruelling. Maggie’s have been helping me such a lot, the depression makes me have episodes when I start crying and I can’t stop. When my sister was told she would need chemo, she got nippy with me while she waited to see a specialist nurse to go over her treatment plan, it all go too much and I couldn’t stop crying. I went to Maggie’s the next day and spoke to the specialist, she told me that I am letting what happened to my mum interfere with what is happening now. Everything came back negative so it has gone, they are just making sure they cover all bases to have that shot to cure it. I am so scared of losing my sister as she is the only family I have left as well as my best friend. You should try some of the classes they have at Maggie’s, I go to meditation which helps. For cancer patients they have art therapy classes. It’s a safe place for you to go to and meet people who understand what you are going through
Hi Keith,
I remember Eddie the Eagle and his story well. Really admirable what he managed to achieve. All these little things make us remember and can be bitter sweet, happy memories but sad for our loss.
Cant believe someone tried to pinch your shopping! You have to be so on the ball with everything.
Are you seeing anyone over Christmas? At least you have a break before the next treatment. I hope that’s going on ok. I have to face the big shop early tomorrow. Hoping it’s not too busy!