OMD are great
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That is such a lovely idea, you will be able to relate to what people are going through.l, and show empathy. You should just go for it, we have learned that life is too short
I know my mum changed after she was diagnosed, and my sister has become less tolerable of people. A lot of people assume that a cancer diagnosis is a death sentence but these days there are so many treatments, but people like to be all doom and gloom towards someone who has been diagnosed, which makes it harder for them to deal with it all
Iāll let everyone know how I get on, itās not as easy up the north east they donāt get the funding they need really, but itās doable.
I start my own counselling next week so quite looking forward to that intense psychotherapy, Iām not ashamed to say I need it, Iām just happy that I didnāt take another road i easily could have 
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Itās good that you were able to recognise that you needed help, Iāve been there and itās not easy to do as there is still a lot of taboo around mental health. My doctor has been really understanding and supportive. Good luck with your sessions, it will be tough to talk about things but a relief at the same time. I got counselling in 2022 after I lost my dad and it really helped
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Hi . I know i am not in exacting same situation, but i lost
Dad in Oct 2018
Bruv in law July 2019
Mum in March 2020
12 friends all in 2020
I do have 3 sisters, but i only hear from them via odd messages on WhatsApp. If you want to chat, i am here for you xxx
I miss my parents still SO SO much, feeling lost, alone & just empty without them.
Sending hugs xx
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All I have now is the music I grew up with, which was so important. As it gave us a identity. I know my box of 45ās was a treasured item at the time. I donāt understand people who donāt really care about music. Iām not so bothered about todayās music though.
You probably like me and fingers crossed a few more out there. My only connection to the city I was born into was mum. Now she gone just a roof over my head, not much more, hospital visits too.
Hi and yes itās horrible it never leaves your mind does it grief ? I try to keep as busy as possible ive 4 grown up sons who have been amazing. But you still feel alone in your grief thatās why coming on here helps too
Hugs back at you x
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Depression has always been a big part of my life I grew up with it, both parents suffered not nice to see when growing up. So I struggle with grief and also childhood trauma which surfaced when parents died. I just take each day as it comes and get the help I need too
@ Everyone Iām going to ask at Maggieās what are my options regards job. I donāt see myself doing security full time no more. I might do a bit but my badge runs out this month.
It sounds like you are looking after yourself which is really important. Life throws a lot at us, what we do with it makes or breaks us
Work is a long way off for you at the moment, you would need to wait and see how you get on with treatments.
No, I feel the same about music. Itās central to me and is what keeps you going.
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Definitely you can go two ways, some days are worse than others it definitely changes you as a person all this grief at once
Thanks for the comforting words, now only if I can get my incomings and outgoings on the same level. My sick pay ended on the 24th of last month and Iām still waiting on a decision on ESA
You could maybe ask Maggieās if there are any options in the future to help you get back into work. Even volunteering would get you back into a routine of getting up, ready and out āto workā. It would also be experience you could put on your CV, show future employers that even though you have been out of work for a long time, you have been gaining valuable experience
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I know what you mean, I have had emotional spell when I just canāt stop crying, I have no control over it. Some days I feel positive and other day not so much, itās lots of waves, weāve just got to let them do their thing and wait for them to pass
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I just am aware of so many things at the moment. I know itās still early days regards the new year. You can only afford to live if you got enough income coming in. Whilst Sick Pay helped till I got pip which took its time. Iām now waiting on ESA decision. I need that as pip is no where near enough. Iāve been losing money since June and obviously in a constant fight with time too. Maggieās canāt help me with grief for my mum, my sister well maybe we shouldnāt go there. 0 family to rely on only a aunty in Oz and the mail delay isnāt that good and she in her 80s too. Thatās why I stay in touch with my Scottish friend on FB who runs a spiritualist group. I need everybody at the moment, here, hospital, aunty, and the spiritualist group, I need all the help I can get.
My SIA badge runs out this month, Iām not sure if I want to go back into full security. I could carry on with event security and the football but this wonāt cover my expenses. I didnāt think what my mum left me would be enough. Canāt claim Universal credit, and Iām thinking about what Wethery said about counseling but I would be tempted to help with bereavement as thereās a massive gap in this sector, just being on here proves that to me.
Hospital will I be free ? can I get back to normal itās a long journey. Even after the Stem Cell Transplant which I kind of know I need to do, I still got a hernia that a different part of the hospital are aware of. So if I get past the SCT and make a decent recovery and stay low regards Myeloma then I will still have to have hernia surgery. Itās a nightmare and I can only take this journey step by step! I got an appointment with my consultant on the 13th of the month, I will need to ask her these questions and Iām also going to need to visit Maggieās about ESA too.
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Are you able to get support from Macmillan? When mum was diagnosed with leukaemia they got a money matters lady to assess mum to see what help she could get. She got a new boiler as mum would feel the cold easily, and a grant for new clothes as she had lost so much weight. Mum couldnāt get benefits are our dad had money coming in.