My son died 12 December last year.
Christmas was just a blur.
I miss him so much . He used to call on his way home from work or if not phone me
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Dreading this Christmas, my son died 16th December last year, my dad died on Christmas Day last year… I can pretend to be “normal “ for a bit, but it’s exhausting, but when the grief and tears break through I feel I can’t stop and it just overwhelms me. I miss my son so much. He was great company, so funny and incredibly kind - my thoughts are with you all.
I’m in Southampton so afraid I couldn’t get further away from Scotland unfortunately xxx
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He’s certainly a handsome chap!
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I’m dreading Christmas without my son, I can’t stand the thought of it. My brother died on Christmas eve last year too. I’ll be spending Christmas with family but I’m not looking forward to it at all. Everything is different now and will never be the same again x
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Me too, 16th December it will be one year since James died, feel my mood spiralling already… hard time of year for all of us without our boys, - I found a few things on how to cope but I don’t think they scratch the surface xxxx
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I used to love Christmas but now can’t stand the thought of it. However I can’t let my daughter down and people are making plans for things for us all to do together. It’s really not what I want but I’m worried about hurting people’s feelings who are already upset. I’m really dreading it.
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I’m not surprised, it’s going to be tough. I’m going to light a candle through December to remember James 
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It’s one year since Andrew died on 12 December.
I’m already struggling and can feel myself spiralling reliving the time he was in the hospice.
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It’s just too much for us to bear, feel for you xxx
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I’m having a terrible day, if I’m not crying I feel like crying. I feel like I just can’t cope at all with Rupert being gone. I thought I’d started to come to terms with it as I had a couple of calm days but I obviously haven’t.
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I’m not having a good day.
I just can’t stop thinking about Andrew.
I miss him so much
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Just just awful isn’t it and I don’t think anyone who hasn’t gone through it understands properly x
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My 28 year old son died from a brain tumour on 28/10/2024. His funeral was Friday, 22nd Nov. 
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Our son was 52. He had bowel cancer. He was so brave even though he knew he was going to die. The grief just hurts so much x
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It does and I know how you feel. My son was so brave and strong. Bless him. Hurts like hell and back.
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Cancer is so terrible, my son was only 47,he had special needs. He fought to walk with right side cerebral palsy, epilepsy,then at 23 under active thyroid . With all this he was independent going out by himself and doing lots of things by himself. He died within 3 months of secondary bone cancer.Even in hospital when blood was dripping fro his arms he was smiling and joking with everyone. It broke my heart when he ask the nurse am I going to die, she just answered well not just now. That was about two weeks before he died. Life is so cruel, the lord gave us a kind loving son who had so many friends and loved life.Then he took him away well before his time.when he was transferred to hospital ,I rushed to meet him at the hospital,I asked two ambulance at the hospital where do I go,they said are you Chris mum? They said what a lovely lad (He always looked young for his age) they said he has been laughing and joking with us all the way.We miss him so much. Fighting cancer is the biggest war we have!
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I’m really struggling today, I miss my son so much and can’t stand my life without him.
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I am with you today Ali76. I haven’t been able to concentrate on anything. The gap he has left in our lives feels to big 
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I’ve been in tears all day. I feel like it’s only hitting home properly that he’s gone. I feel heartbroken and the need to see him is unbearable x
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