I lost my husband on the 22 nd march people say your strong you will get there but it’s so lonely
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I lost my wife on 9th March she was only 49. It is lonely isn’t it? Terrifying too. Lets hope we get through this. Good luck
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Susan, No one understands your loss unless they have been through loosing a long term partner. I did not know until I lost my darling wife of 52 years a year ago. Grief takes time, everyone is different. I saw this and thought it so true, " Time does not heal a heartache or stop a silent tear nor take away the memories of one we held so dear " Try and remember some happy time, something he did that made you smile or you making him laugh. It may bring a tear but hang on to those happy memories. The price of Love seems to be the grief when you loose them. Come on here for a chat or a bit of a ramble, like I have just done, It does help. We do all understand.
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So sorry for your loss.
I lost my wife 9 weeks ago tomorrow morning.
I’m heartbroken and can’t stop sobbing.
I’ve always been considered a strong person, but the loss of a lady I have loved for 60 years and married nearly 58 has devastated me.
To be honest, I don’t want to carry on. I would never end it, but I feel as if I am in a living hell.
Every time I have a good part of a day, something comes along to shatter my heart again.
My 79 year old body has lost a stone and a half and I am getting very little sleep.
My GP prescribed some tablets yesterday, which I’ll start tonight so hopefully they’ll help.
I feel so lonely as well, but I also try to avoid contact with people.
At the moment, my life is over
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It’s so sad to read these sty but also a bit comforting my fay have seemed to disappear since the funeral and it’s a split one so that makes it wit but I do believe know that it was my husband that held it together but now he’s not here sometimes I feel like getting in my car and running away but then I have to come back o looked after my husband and was wuth him at the end it’s sole destroying I never thought it would be so bad
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That’s good advice as you know it’s up and down I dreading the winter
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Thanks Lyn While I love to believe you. I’m finding it so hard to believe anything, anymore.
I’m in bed with TV on and haven’t a clue what I’m watching. It’s just noise trying to drown out the noise in my head.
I appreciate the hope you’re trying to instil in people but it’s so bloody hard.
Like most here, I’ve experienced good and bad times in my long life, but this is definitely the lowest I have ever been.
My foundations are liquid tears
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I thought when my husband passed I would be ok but o wrong am I I would not wish this feeling on anyone I never thought how hard it was going to be
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After losing my husband suddenly 13 weeks ago, yesterday and today have been horrible and ive really taken a huge step backwords. Ive tried getting out and about but its just not working. The silence in the house is deafening but when I’m out I’m overwhelmed. I just dont know how I’m going to get through this
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Easter, I leave BBC Radio 4 on all the time, it is almost all talking and it makes the house seem a little less empty. It is no replacement for a person but it seems to help me a bit. I am afraid it is one step at a time Grief comes in waves I hope that you are due an upturn, try and think of something happy. Be kind to yourself.
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Firstly I am sorry for your loss
The first thing I always ask someone is,
What does grief look like to you?
Grief will have many disguises, it will look and feel different tomorrow than it may have looked today.
Remember this, your loved one who has passed is not hurting, it’s us that remain here who hurt and grieve.
We need to learn how to honour that grief.
Always here if you need to talk.
God bless you x
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I have my tv and radio on all the time so I don’t have to come into a empty house
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I have Classic FM on as soon as I get up. I do turn if off when I leave the house
I lost my dear husband 14 months ago. We had both been widowed when we were young. We always had a deep understanding of one another because we had both suffered loss .
I feel very guilty because I resent several life long friends who have been married for more than 50 years. They always seem to be complaining about their husbands.
Little do they know how much harder it would be on their own. They knew my first and second husband . I find it hard to say nothing when they are moaning and feel hard done by having been through an enormous amount of pain and they haven’t had to experience any of it, so far.
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Hi Johnr
It is so difficult to cope with the loss of a husband or wife
especially when we are older and have spent most of our adult life with them.
We think how can we live on without them.
The pain is something we have never experienced and we want it to go away. My husband died 20 months ago.
Today I went to a garden centre and had a coffee on my own, bought plants and cried in the car on the way home.
But some days can be better, but the sadness is always in our minds.
I hope you can have some happy moments even though that seems impossible.
Take care.
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Thanks Julia, you are so right.
So sorry for your loss,
I’ve been trying to kick myself into doing something, so just booked a weeks holiday in Snowdonia.
I’ve always loved the mountains, despite a fear of heights
Off to Llanberis on the 8th June
I have also just cooked a Lasagne, albeit one of those Charlie Bigham meals and it was almost as good as the wife made
For me, i don’t have an issue with the silence when i get home, it’s that she is not there, silence or not.
I have tried, from the start of my horrible new life, to try to accept that she has gone, and won’t be back. I tell myself, when i get to the front door, that she won’t be there. It is hard but not so constantly devastating as realising day after day that she really isn’t there.
It is a horrible thing, grief. I sprayed a touch of her perfume today, while i was going through her handbag, thinking it might help. It didn’t. I immediately burst into tears.
It is a very lonely place where we all find ourselves.
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I’m sorry for your loss. My partner died in April and I get the same comments that you’re strong etc. I don’t feel strong and I do what I have to do to get through the day. I can only think they mean I’m not in a heap sobbing permanently. People mean well but most people haven’t a clue how losing a partner feels. This site has been a godsend.
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22nd March! Gosh, that is only less than 2 months ago! I am so sorry for your loss Susan! 
I know you have heard a lot of this and become numb. My husband passed away on 8th Sept last year. that is showing in my log name. I have been in tears every day and will continue, I do not know when I will stop crying. I came here today as I feel,again, overwhelmingly sad and tearful. My friend gave one of her dogs to me to be my company. She is terribly kind lady! I cannot thank her enough. Without my dog I do not where I am now. I sleep and eat with him just like my new mate/parter. My hubby would be really anoyed for that. But I am drawning. I have to hold something. It is really tough to live alonely. I keep my hubby at home, Kiss him good morning and nighty night. carry on tidying our home and looking after our garden just as I promised him. Maybe that is the only thing keep me going… again, heartbroke every day… lonely, despair… cannot be bothered with anything unless I have to… I cannot give you any advise, but I do understand how you feel… I can only offer you a big hug, and shed tears with you with my whole heart…
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Firstly I am so sorry for your loss.
But focus on the sadness you feel, and then ask yourself why you feel so sad.
You feel such pain and sadness purely because of the love you had for your husband. And how wonderful is that.
How amazing is it that you loved your husband so much that you hurt so much now he has passed. That is so beautiful to know.
Imagine what it would say to you and the world if you didn’t feel the pain and sadness.
Embrace the love you shared and it will help you through, when you feel the pain and sadness, remember, it’s only there because of how much you loved your husband.
God bless you x
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