Hello @Maxkinahan1 I am sorry that you had this happen to you and your husband. My husband also died from a heart attack that the doctor said started when we were having a healthy long walk the day before. I have no kids (I thought we still might but it wasn’t a priority as we loved to be just together, that was enough) 4 cats who we treated like our precious children though.
We bought our first house 5 years ago after 10 years of saving for a deposit. It was a wreck. Every room mouldy, smashed windows, graffiti, fly-tipped rubbish, kicked in front door. Over the last 5 years we worked hard to make it into a dream-house for us. For the last 2 years we could enjoy it once the worst of it was done but we were always still in the middle of more mini-projects.
We saw other people as an inconvenience really as we had the most fun together, we met my parents every 2 weeks for a walk or trip to the garden centre and met other friends for special occasions but mostly it was just us. Now I am so lonely, even when other people are with me.
It’s 9 weeks since his sudden death for me, it all happened within 10 minutes and I tried the best effort of my entire life to save him but couldn’t. I am so sorry that you need to be here but glad you found us as whilst no one will have the same experience as your own horror story, many of us have elements that match so we can understand somewhat.
Take care and only do what you feel you want to where possible because it is just too much, too horrible… take it as easy as possible on yourself until there are days where you feel like doing more.