Thank you very much for introducing yourself Jeanette, that is very kind of you. I am very sorry to learn of the loss of your husband and the additional challenges that lockdown has created.
I lost my husband ( who was 62 ) 6 weeks ago today on 13 September 2020, after 19 years together and it has been a very distressing time because of COVID barriers and restrictions, making everything more difficult to access because people are working from home / organisations are not being staffed in the same way.
I was very lucky in that I was able to support my husband’s wish to be at home, rather than hospital and we were together (albeit not in the same room) when he died . . . I thank my lucky stars that we were able to have that time together and get the closure ( if that is the right word ) that is denied to so many. In the words of his favourite film, he was ‘quite ready’ and by the time the second funeral came around, I was quite ready ( or at least as ready as I would ever be ) to let him go.
Life feels very strange and as if I am in a parallel universe, as I know he has gone but I haven’t really had time to start my grief process, because of all of the issues around the funeral and also because he had been so poorly and in bed ( in a separate room ) for almost a fortnight. I suppose ( luckily again ), I had started to get used to being alone; hence why I feel in a parallel universe, as I had been used to living sort of separately but regularly went in to whichever room he was in ( he kept flitting between two bedrooms in an attempt to get comfortable ).
Like you, I am so pleased to have found a community of people going through the same things, to help and support each other as only the ( newly ) bereaved can really understand what the bereaved are going through as time, dilutes the memory.
I am looking forward to supporting others, as much as being supported, once I have navigated my way through my own T-R-E-A-C-L-E of G-R-I-E-F, as that is the best way that I know to cope.
You take care too x