Hope this helps anyone else that is so fed up with people saying
Times a great healer.
I wrote this and posted it on my Facebook page.
It helped people realise that l hadn’t got over losing my soul mate, my husband, the love of my life in the 6 months since he had passed.
Thoughts to everyone on this new unwanted journey 
That is all so true time will
Not heal our Brocken Heart how can it can never be mended how can it we have lost our loved one our other half it will never be ok people say also the first year is the worse that rubbish too rest of our life is worse unless people are living with this grief that have not got a clue it has been 8 months and it’s getting worse xx
This is an awfully feeling that we have to live the rest of our lives without the only one we want to be with. It’s heartbreaking. I am 59 and I am so scared I am going to live for years and years without my darling husband that I have been with since we were 16 .
So sorry that you find yourself on here so young I feel like you I was with my husband at 18 so like you know other life and now we are left alone it’s horrific thought living too many years alone I don’t know what to do with my life now nothing I want to do not sure how people manage alone sending hugs xx
Thank you for kind words . I always loved Friday nights work finished whole weekend ahead of us . Now I am just sitting alone wondering how I go on without him it’s been four months since he went I’m back at work but the pain is so unbearable. I try to put brave face on at work and with my kids but it is so hard. He is the one person I need to talk to . Hugs back x
I agree with you I am sitting alone I miss home so much I manage to go out try and keep busy but it’s hard being with people as they making plans I can not make plans now feel life has come to end but just going through motions night time is worse for us isn’t it empty bed no more hugs no nothing empty house hope you can sleep xx
I still have adult son living with me with his girlfriend and his teenage daughter from a different relationship so house (not home anymore) is quiet busy but I feel so alone . I sleep for about an hour then toss and turn rest of night . I write to my husband in diary asking him to come get me but he never does. I get up in the morning and just think another day closer to being with him. I do find comfort on this site because I can say things I can’t to people around me cause they don’t know how it feels to be without the one you love and adore. I don’t know if I’m daft to believe I will be with him one day but that is what I’m praying for.(I’m not suicidle ) but would be happy if I just died. Hope you understand sorry for going on a bit . Much love to everyone in same heartbroken life x
I ask my husband to come and get me also I find it helps to write on hear how I’m feeling people don’t want to know really I have family that I was close to now they don’t even text that hurts I wake up in morning early hours and his not next to me I think another day what shall I do all very difficult alone I feel like a spare part with out him with me love to all xxx
Broken, I know what you mean. I am only 51 and don’t want such an empty life for what could be as long as the 34 years I was with him.
So sorry I also have close family but they don’t bother much now in a way I’m glad as I don’t have to put on a act . I’m in my bedroom now my sanctuary were I can cry as much as I want without upsetting the family . It’s hard keeping it in all day. I never thought I would ever be this lonely I thought I would go first as Chris was much fitter and healthier than me but dreaded cancer got him . Diagnosed in march died September still can’t believe it. It is heart breaking to think we all had wonderful partners and were so happy and now we are getting help and comfort from strangers that have found themselves in same situation. It’s such a cruel life . Big hug to all x
Thanks for reply it is awful that we have been left to live this lonely sad life with no future that we want . Hugs x
Dear AnnB
Thanks for posting - it certainly helps. Over sixteen months on and I still hear this from people along with now the first year is over. But we know the reality. I found this second Christmas worse than the first. Certainly the health issues as a result of stress have increased enormously. Approaching our 40th wedding anniversary in March. In the first lockdown we talk excitedly about this date and our plans once lockdowns were lifted only for husband to die six months later. As others have said on this post how are we supposed to get through God only knows how much time without our loved ones, the person we have spent decades with.
Thank you for replying . It would be our 40 anniversary in June I am dreading that day every day is hard but especially our day . I thought people die of broken hearts mine is apsolutly shattered and yet I’m still here . I don’t sleep much and have a meal every three or four days( meal=sandwich) just living of coffee and cigs . I know Chris would be going mad with me for the way I am existing but I am still here . Love and hugs to all x
Your welcome.
Nobody that hasn’t felt the same loss knows how we feel and they don’t understand.
I’ve always written a lot of poetry, it’s where my true feelings come out.
I’m now 9 months into this horrendous journey and only 50.
I can’t imagine waiting possibly another 30 years for another hug with my hubby.
Sending love 
Roses45
I’m 9 months into this unwanted journey.
It’s not getting any easier. People expect us to move on but how?
I exist from day to day, that’s it.
I’m 50, I can’t imagine how I get through possibly another 30 years.
Heartbroken 
Broken and Jules
I do the same, I ask him to come and get me.
I’m not suicidal but I’m not afraid of dying anymore.
The only thing that keeps me going is I promised him that I’d carry on for our daughter who’s only 21.
Family stopped asking how we were after the funeral, they think once that is done we should be fine.
Aren’t they lucky to be so ignorant and never have felt this pain xx
I understand exactly what you mean. I’ve got two children in their early 20s. I know I have to be here for them. The rest is pretty pointless. Take care
Hiya Ann it’s so true it’s 14months since the only man I ever loved passed I cry every day but not all day like I did but it’s a horrible life lv annie x x
It definitely is horrible for all of us on this journey.
I’m nine months in now and people say the 1st year was easier than the 2nd. If that’s the case I’m dreading it even more.
Strength and love to you