We went together shopping a year ago and went to Lidl at Lakeside, not knowing that it would be the last time that we went shopping together. We heard the news that the Queen died on the radio just as we parked up. I cannot believe that my husband is never coming back and that I have to be on my own forever with nobody to talk to and have a good laugh together. I hate my existence and cannot see anything positive in my future - only loneliness, financial uncertainty, and pain. Sending love and hugs to everyone.
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Dear Anna
These poignant memories are difficult to handle. This day last year, I was sitting with my husband in hospital, which was the start of a very heartbreaking time.
I, too, hate my lonely existence and I miss my dear husband more each day. I try to positive but feel so very sad about the future.
I am lucky that I donât have any financial problems and sympathise with you with that issue.
Sending love, Rosemary x
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This day last year I was not very well. I went into hospital soon afterwards with fluid around my lung. My husband was with me for hours each one of the 4 days I was in hospital. As I suspect with many of us if I had to go into hospital now I donât know who would visit and then I would come home to an empty house. At least somehow today I have managed to keep the house relatively cool. Just waiting for someone to come and test my hearing and then possibly adapt my husbands hearing aids to me. Xx
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Sandra, please donât go there and think about hospital. The state of my hospital and the way my husband was treated, I shall not want to go anyway. xx
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My hospital was very good. I was found a bed within 4 hours of arriving at A&E. I was given a room to myself with a TV. When on my own the staff would pop in every so often to chat. They got me the Bariatric equipment I needed quickly. Even the food was good. I was in there during the queens lying in state. Norman was looked after well during his final days. All the nurses called him Mr Norman. If you have to be in hospital from my experience I can recommend Yeovil district hospital.
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Iâm going to move down there then. It sounds paradise compared to mine.
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Property is cheap as well in south Somerset.
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This time last year i was told by my husbands consultant that there was nothing to worry about and they would âfixâ it ! How wrong he was and i had no idea i would be without my husband by xmas 
but i always had this uneasy feeling about it all ⌠love to you all and i share your pain xx
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Yeh ⌠same here ! With our hospital ! Incompetent pretty well covers it !!! Xx
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xxI think we should all move and be with Sandra.
Love to everyone who has sad memories today ⌠and everyday. xx
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Sounds like the useless and incompetent and negligent and rubbish consultant my darling man had. He couldnât even read a scan properly.
So sorry, Deb, you had a bad one as well. It doesnât help does it with our misery of losing them?
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No it doesnt help because you feel like they didnât do their job properly ! And after all thats what they get paid for !!! Thousands of pounds ! God help us all with the NHS we have nowadays !!!
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Although it was not âmy partnerâ but my beloved mum. I just checked my diary. Exactly a year ago today, the Dr sent her to hospital from the care home. I followed the ambulance at 3.30pm and she lay in the ambulance for a few hours until she could go in. The whole time she was in her âunable to wakeâ state. She never woke up and didnât know a thing what was going on. So sad, but I stood beside her as she was eventually wheeled in on a trolley, it was unbearable to watch as everyone was staring. She looked like death unable to wake up. I heard the news about the Queen later that evening as she was in a side room in A&E. I left late that night and she was moved back to the care home. She did carry on until May this year when she passed. But it has just reminded me what a dreadful day that was.
Please everyone know that I am certain that our loved ones in spirit are watching over us every day. I know that doesnât make our lives any easier, but we can hope and try to do our best to slowly move forward, knowing that we should make the most of every day we have here on Earth, however difficult it may be. I try to stay focused and donât bring myself down with âIâll never be happy again, etc. etc.â. Just stay out of the âdepressedâ zone if you possibly can. xxx
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Yeh easier said than done when there seems to be no hope and we are left in this" no mans land " the land between the living and the dead ⌠the land where we have nobody to love anymore ! I got my puppy but nobody else really ! 3 kids with a life of their own ⌠all feels so hopeless ⌠soz ⌠thatâs just how i feel today x
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I really do know how you feel. So sorry youâre having a rough day. Give your pup a big hug⌠and hugs from me too. xx
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I hope you donât mind me asking @youareunbelievable, but I would really like to know how you can be certain that our loved ones in spirit are watching over us every day. I try to believe in that, but when we are living in so much misery and grief, it is very difficult. My husband would be mortified if he saw the state I am regularly in.
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I am genuinely pleased for you but it isnât a state of mind that I am anywhere near achieving,the real life every day pain of losing my wife far outweighs even the slightest shred of positivity.
I may get there one day but it isnât within any future that I imagine.
However I do admire the effort you are putting in to making your life bearable.
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Thanks Mike. I just try to stay focused and positive. It is really really hard.; but I just donât want to stay miserable. I donât think any of our loved ones would want that for us, but I know how extremely hard it is to be focused and looking forward to brighter days. xx
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Recently have been up and down. Today my son came unexpectedly for the day. Yesterday evening my other son came. On Monday afternoon my three grandchildren and my son came. No one will comes at the weekend.
I text my sons and get tel calls. But a lot of time on my own. I go for a walk so I can talk to dog owners. I have an old cat.
When the queen died my husband only had 5 weeks left at home. Efore he had his foot KNIFE EDGE he never wanted but his heart was too weak to survive anyway so he died. I waz not surprised really I had been on a knife edge for five weeks. The garxen looks pretty. I have been doing that. Trued to help on his allotment but a huge struggle. Got some produce. Must get some more. Cooked it to make meals for freezer. I try to help out with my sons where I can. Gotba cupboard cleared today to redirect my crafg stuff to get a shower cubicle downstairs in its place.
Finally it looks like my husbandâs memorial bench will be erected nr his grave. I still havenât decided whatvhis headstone should look like. His clothes still hang there. I havenât managed to get his car sorted to be sold. So many things to do.
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