My husband of nearly 27 years died on the 17th June. He had cancer and died at home, according to his wishes, with me by his side. I’m heartbroken, as we all are on here. I went back to work on a phased return last week and it’s been going ok. I’m fortunate to have good support there. I felt like I’ve been having quite a good week - yes, I’ve still cried every day but things felt a little easier. I went to an employment law seminar today for work. On 3 separate occasions there were discussions on bereavement leave. It was a relatively small group. I managed to get through it - only my colleague knew my circunstances, and even went back to work for a while after but couldn’t concentrate. On the bus home I felt exhausted and overwhelmed and as soon as I got in my front door, I was hit with the biggest wave of grief I’ve had for a while. It all felt so real and I just so wanted to talk to Bob about my day and for him to tell me to have a lie down if I was tired. For the first time since he died, I did decide to go to bed and slept for a couple of hours. I suppose I just wanted to share how unpredictable these waves of grief are and how they hit when you think you’re doing ‘OK’. 
Hi Tray, so sorry for your loss, you’re brave going back to work so soon, but maybe the distraction helps..i lost my husband of 35 years in March, and I get those waves of intense emotions, sometimes just unexpected. I hate it , it renders me quite useless, i hafta make myself calm down..take care of yourself and God bless you 
@Lightmary68 Lightmary68 Thanks so much. It’s hard isn’t it! I’m only doing part time right now. I’m thankful that they’re so supportive and will understand if there’s times I can’t manage. Thinking of you too x
Hi, Tray, thats great to hear about your employer, I don’t think there’s many that would be so considerate of our situation..Take care, ill be thinking of you too and praying for you
Dear Tray I’m sorry you are having a bad time. My wife died on Christmas day after two years of cancer treatments. You have started working quickly which can help but I think even when we stay active the waves of grief still hit.
Wishing you all the best Tom
