No darling and thats the sad fact , I just wish i could sleep and wake up when the hurt stops or better still go back in time to a time when Gra was still here. Xxx
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Yes it is hard to see couples together ! I work for a coaching holiday company so I mainly get retired guests staying here ! My husband never got the chance to retire ! And when they are moaning to me about their bedroom etc I think “but you still have the opportunity to go on holiday with your husband and got to retire together ! I am 56 working and a widow ! Like you said I hate them too ! I know “hate “ is a harsh word !
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Hiya Janet i am 59 we didnt go on holidays due the fact i am agrophobic. But I know what you mean what I would give . I cant even go out and meet friends. Its so lonely. Xx
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I still have a 28 year old son at home but I hardly ever see him he has his own life , I asked him would he sit at the table for me for meals I hate sitting at the table alone , he did once and that was it ! But to be honest he was never there at meal times anyway , I use to sit at the table with my hubby now it’s on my lap in front of tv the table is very lonely x
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Its horrid isnt it . I never thought you could feel so empty and lonely. I wish we all lived closer we could do one big meal and sit all together. Give everyone a cuddle who needs it . Xxxx
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I’m the same as you sit with my meal on my knee watching tv. I also tried sitting at the table but it was horrendous.X
Resent them then ! But either way i get sick of seeing gushing couples in our situation dont you ? X
I sometimes think why should they have there partner when I don’t it do seam unfair
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I don’t mind seeing people with partners, but if they are bickering I do feel like telling them off and that they should feel lucky to have each other.
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It is very unfair.
I envy them.
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We always had our meals at the table,but after he died I just burst into tears every time I sat at the table so for the last 13 months I have just my had my meals on myknee in front of the tv.
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Yes I do ! We probably sound like “bitter old widows “ but I don’t consider myself “old “ at 56! I feel like “younger , robbed , husband taken “! X
Nice to hear someone singing of the same page though
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I try and have the odd meal at the table but it just doesn’t work does it ! X
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It that song from Les Mis musical “empty chairs and empty tables “! It’s just not right is it x
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Yes it would be one BIG table we are all so scattered all around the country nice that we can rant on here though x
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Sure is darling and what great support you have all been xxxx
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I went to the Armed Forces day las Saturday and I kept staring at couple walking around and laying on the beach together, eating together etc etc, I was so jealous and some of them were very old and I felt angry that David had been take so young 
Hello Hope 2,
When I read your message Hope it absolutely mirrored where I am at the moment. My husband died 20 months ago, I have joined a few clubs, meet friends for coffee or an occasional meal and I see my family from time to time (one son is unwell and the other lives a distance away) but they do keep in touch which I appreciate. I also thought about moving house and put in 2 offers but withdrew from one and was relieved when I wasn’t successful with the other - I think that tells me that I don’t really want to move! I also tried a dating site recently and chatted to a couple of people but, like you, it didn’t feel right - at the moment anyway, so I cancelled my membership. I recently started doing some voluntary work and although I quite enjoy it when I am there I don’t feel this is going to provide the old oomph! Like you I can’t seem to have a sense of fulfilment, satisfaction or joy in my life. I don’t say this negatively, it is just how I feel. On the positive side I rehomed a lovely dog 6 months ago and she keeps me busy and I can at least talk to her and give her a cuddle.
I know this doesn’t answer your question on what to do Hope, but perhaps it might help a little to know that what you are feeling is not unusual. As you probably know, we all experience our loss differently and it is all normal. Basically, I am a positive person and I trust that things will get a bit easier and there will be a path to follow while holding my beloved husband in my heart.
Sending everyone love and positive thoughts. x
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But it doesn’t work like that. It’s normal for couples to bicker in fact those that do stay together rather than bottling it up. It’s when you lose your husband you wish you hadn’t been so thoughless. In a way it’s similar to when you have a baby, the constant feeding, crying and loss of sleep. If it’s your first child you think when can they grow a bit older so you weren’t on duty 24 hrs a day with some help from your partner but then suddenly they are grown up and you wish they were still small. You can’t win it’s so heartbreaking when you lose your husband you can’t see a life beyond what has happened.
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