Thats my problem Lizzy I sit on my butt too much and really should be more active now its getting lighter at nights I will soon be able to go out for walks, getting motivated is so hard, when my husband was alive I was out walking a lot, on my own because of the gout he couldn’t walk far and said I walked far too fast for him anyway, its my natural speed to walk and very difficult to change to that xxx
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Oh Nigel, why did I read this in the restaurant 
, it’s beautiful. You might not feel Mary but I’m sure she is looking down at you, get the Prosecco opened tonight, take care 
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Good morning everybody. Sleep was adequate usual waking but I think I got enough sleep in.
Manb getting little sleep is not good when you are having a crash. I too was worried that the forecast today would bring me down as I cannot bear staying in all day. It now looks like it may dry up this afternoon. Being school holidays I avoid driving anywhere as a lot of people are off.
Nigel a day of memories for you, I hope they make you smile more then they make you cry. I am reassessing my idea of your french home. With all those duvets, vacuums, and tools it must be huge. I think you may need counselling about your hoarding. You definitely need a Lizzy but you may have nothing left.
Lizzy, its so nice to see the ones you love having a nice time. I think you have been too. You sound so much more happier, if that is a word we dare to use.
Peaches, you do sound a bit better. Glad you have a plan for sorting out Aunty’s needs. Things are going well. I love chocolate but I cannot eat too much. A lot of sugar and my forehead starts sweating. I do not like sugary things in a morning. Always need something sweet after lunch and dinner though. My husband liked savoury snacks more then sweet.
Well its nearly nine and I’m still in bed. Better shake a leg. Xx
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Definitely - brighter weather lifts just so much. Grey, wet and windy here in France too! 
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Nigel that was such a beautiful poem it has made me cry you are doing so well you should be so proud. Lizzy enjoy your last day in turkey it’s pouring with rain here got soaked walking the dogs.
Good advice Peaches i’ve never drank alcohol only because i’ve never found a drink i like. Your right about sugar i can’t just have one square of chocolate i have to keep going back for more till it’s all gone.
I get sudden waves of sadness wash over me it will be due to memory or a song we both loved or just coming home to an empty house.
Hope you all have a good day xx
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Goodmorning all wow just had the best sleep for a long time
Hope we are all good today xxx
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Thank you Georgi. I did warn you! I’ve had a lovely long WhatsApp video from my sister in Sydney. I was still in bed reading replies on Facebook when she called. We had a great chat. She watched the fil ‘Enclave’ recently about the voting system for the Pope. I cut my hair last week and it is pretty short, and I was also wearing a red t-shirt. She thought I looked like one of the cardinals in the film. I did laugh. I’ve since had a nice call from daughter #2. They both asked if I was all right - but they said it the right way, knowing I’m probably not. Actually I’m far better than I expected to be. Hopefully that will last. Daughter #1 has already sent a message on Facebook and now one on WhatsApp. Son #2 has texted as has wife of son #1. That makes me happy as he’s never been very demonstrative and will be deep in his work.
Have a good day. Nigel xxxx
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What you self medicating
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Lizzy - I did warn you!!! I didn’t add the piece from the wake here, but suffice to say, that was the section that had people leaving the hall in tears. I didn’t know till later. Looking at it again recently, I can’t believe I got through it either!
So many lovely messages - GS #1 just texted ‘Sending love your way today Grandad’. He had a special bond with Mary so it’s extra special to hear from him. And son #1 texted too - fantastic!
Enjoy your last full day Lizzy. I’m opening a bottle of Mary’s favourite prosecco tonight. It will probably end up empty!
Nigel xxxx
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Debsie that’s so true it sums up exactly what it’s like x
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Hiya were has thecsun gone. I have to go out later .xxx
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Debsie, thank you, that’s my goal today. so far just a small amount of tears, which I can handle. Mostly at little things I remember. I was just saying to daughter #2, that timing is spot on this year, as Mary would not have been here this week in any event - Easter Week always took preference, even over our Wedding Anniversary. Her choir leader told me they are struggling with their first Easter without Mary being there. Struggling to sing the familiar music without seeing her and not hearing her hit the high notes. She’s a lady who lost her husband 10 years ago, so knows the feelings well.
Gosh I haven’t heard ‘shake a leg’ for years!
Have a good day Debsie. xxxx
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Thank you Barbara, true life is often easier to write about than fiction. I think writing everything yesterday released a lot of pent up emotion. That’s really helped me this morning.
Have a good day. Nigel xxxx
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Good morning Dave. So far it’s been pretty good - long may that continue!
Nigel xxx
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Yes i agree .best sleep last for a long time.x
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I have to go shopping .not in the mood.
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manb sorry you had a wakeful night, its tough the nxt day when that happens, hopefully you will feel better as the day goes on xxx
The trials & tribulations of the grief journey xxx
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I have an opticians appointment tomorrow and need to take my glasses with me. I don’t really like my newest reading glasses, they are quite heavy so and tend to use older ones. I have just spend an hour looking for them. I have looked in every drawer and cupboard in this house and they are nowhere to be found. I am now wondering if when I took Davids glasses to the opticians to donate I took mine with them. Oops. I didn’t like them anyway, maybe time for some new ones. 
I have however found loads of stuff that I do not remember putting in the various places which I will immediatly forget again.
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I was meant to be up early for the wee man coming, 3 alarms set and I slept through, woke with the phone ringing when she was at the door, a mad dash to get up, annoying cause I like to hoover and tidy up before he gets here cause he can spot a crumb from a mile off and will eat everything he picks up including cat food!!!
He was tired a wee while ago and fell asleep in my lap, he’s now through in the cot which gives me time to have lunch without him begging for bits of my food lol!
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