Not too bad. Starting to feel a little better. Starting to do a bit more.but not pushing it
Thank you Martyn2 for confirming what my family suggested. I’ve started by removing her from my FB and stopped taking her calls. I still feel guilty but my family and my future must take priority at this time. I hope you are managing this dreadful journey none of us wanted to start.
Taking it day by day and had to clean up my Facebook page myself as some so called friends are pushing me towards dating apps
You shouldn’t have to feel guilty, you are the one that is grieving and don’t need friends like that, is she was a true friend she would understand what you are going through at the moment x
Ive been lucky ive got a few good friends who understand what I m going through and have not done anything like that but ive had quite a few men asking me to friend them but I just ignore them.
I have no intention to find anyone else, Id rather be on my own waiting for the day I can be with him again.
He was the only one for me, my soul mate.
That has been my major problem. I feel that clearing her things out means i am deletng her from history.
I know that i am not, but sadly that is how it feels for me.
Exactly how I feel
I still have everything of my husband, his toothbrush is still in the bathroom, all his clothes are in the drawers and wardrobes and his coats and shoes are in the porch.
His motorbikes are still in his workshop, I’ve not been in there since he died. I used to love going in and sit and chat to him while he was tinkering on something or other.
My son is of the same build as my late husband so I was happy to let a lot of his shooting/fishing stuff find a home with our son. I gave a lot of his clothes to charity, but still wear some of his jumpers and tee shirts. In fact I sleep in his pyjamas even now, 18 months on. There are still lots of things of his in the house so I’m not erasing him from history, but for me I find it comforting to know his clothes are helping others to keep warm this winter.
Maybe further down the road I will pluck up the courage to give some of his clothes to a charity shop.
Thinking of you today especially huge hugs xx