Hello @jrmasslon, thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry for the loss of your mom. Your loss is so recent and raw, it is completely understandable you’re in a state of sadness and disbelief. As well as buying a new house, you are also getting married without your mom and that must be very difficult. Thank you for reaching out with these feelings.
You’ve asked if what you’re experiencing is normal. We have a support page called, “Am I normal?” which may help to read. There are other members who are healthcare professionals too, and I have seen many posts like yours where they have struggled to go back to seeing patients after losing a loved one. @Helen51 talks a little about that on this thread: Dealing with the sudden loss of my Mum - so you are most definitely not alone.
I can see that you’re in the US. Our Our Grief Guide self-help platform has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief and is there for you no matter where in the world you are. Befrienders Worldwide can also help you find local support in person and on the phone if you need to talk to someone.
Hopefully someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard.
Take good care,
Seaneen