Hi Christine . I have actually been widowed longer that I was lovingly married. Wed 26 years widowed 27 years 7 months
It has been very hard and at times I’ve wanted to join my lovng ife.but she keeps telling me that it’s not my time and that I must carry on
I can understand some of the feelings and emotions that you are having. Grief is a monster and keeps jabbing at us and tries to beat us down . So we have to keep standing up against it and over time, things will have changed in our lives, without us actually realising.
As you mention that have been widowed a very long time and that you cant imagine being widowed yourself as long.
I thought that, and even expected to remarry, but I’ve not met the right person, or the right person hasnt found me ?
So now I’ve come to realise that I wont find genuine love and affection in my life
Before Christine died, she told me ( when I pop off , dont be morbid) because she didnt want me to be morbid . I have tried not to be but I still feel sad and lonely,
but because of counselling, cognitive behaviour therapy and hypnotherapy, I have eventually found strength to move forward in my life and find some happiness? As you say time doesn’t bring them back , nothing will. So we have to try and make a new life or existence for ourselves.
I understand that you cant see how you can live without your lovely Peter, and see past today.
but how do you think he would feel with you having nothing but sadness and despair in your life and daily routine?
I am sad that I cant write anything to help ease your pain and loneliness . Or bring Peter back to you.
About your comment , nothing worse can happen , I beg to differ, but I wont mention them on this site
Best wishes and a virtual hug and kiss on your face
Keith ( mr Chipps xxx