So heartbreaking, take care of yourself and remember we are here for you.
I’m dreading tonight, it was 04:08 Saturday morning 6 months ago when I discovered Mark, I had to do CPR on him while waiting for the ambulance and by 06:30 my life had changed for ever, it’s just so hard.
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Ahh sulane that’s heartbreaking I can’t imagine how that must have been for you doing cpr on your beautiful husband heartbreaking il give you a thought tonight and I’ll ask god to give you the strength you need to somehow get through learning how to live alongside your unimaginable pain sadly that’ll never go away but with trust hope and wisdom you’ll one day learn a different life one that of course you don’t want but forced into god bless your aching 
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Thank you xxx
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Hi sulane
I was just thinking about you how you said your dreading tonight,I hope you manage to sleep iv been listening to heavens my home now soo sad yet so beautiful it’s still so very raw for you 6 months is no time to expect to be feeling any bit better try be kind to yourself sending you hugs xx
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Thank you for your kind words, it means so much. I especially get comfort from the words “eternitys for ever and we’ll meet again someday” Big hug xxx
Sorry about your loss, i lost my partner also, and i feel exactly the same way. Nobody cares, nobody wants to deal with sadness, tears and real feeling. Now when people ask me how i feel (if they are not CLOSE friends) i just say HOW do you think i feel? I can not fake it and i do not have energy to do small talk to make people happy and make them feel good about themselves. Someone today told me than i should stop to be sad, as it’s been 6 months…
Maryse iam so sad that was said to you today it’s completely out of order it’s 19 months since my hubby died it’s 3.50am and iv been wondering around our big silent house looking through all sentimental things hubby got for me nobody to share my day with nobody to share the good the bad the sad it’s still surreal to me and one thing I’d like to say it’s your grief nobody can take that from you it’s ok not to be ok I fear the future the unknown apart from always been alone that’s the only certainty I have I love my hubby always will and my heart is his and always will be allow yourself to be just as you feel wheather it’s happy sad alone lost lonely or all mixed up together this is your heart and you only you know how your feeling but the one thing I can say one day you’ll not feel the intensity of grief every day you’ll get days where you walk alongside your grief sadly itl never go away it’s now part of who you are I don’t have all the answers infact everything iv said may feel nonsense to you grief is personal one day at a time
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Bless you sulane our hearts are broken but yes one day your heart will heal yes you’ll meet again and this time for eternity no pain no sadness no sorrow tears just joy .
It’s a long hard road but take one day at a time try not push yourself through allow your tears to flow allow laughter iam so so sorry for your loss big hugs 
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Arva it’s terribly sad we can’t openly discuss your loved ones in the way we always did ,I hope counselling helps you .I feel iv benefited from going my therapies has a very caring personality
But for me I feel the day I walk out for last time it’s another loss I wonder how much the mind and body can take before it just shuts down ,the loneliness is so awful nobody gets it just says get out make friends do something they’ve no idea what iam going through life sucks for so many grief is emotionally challenging i like coming on here to express myself yet at the same time wish I’d never heard of it not be in this position where I had to search for this club were all in together yet none of us want to be part of it my hearts broken I take few steps forward then 10 back it’s a long bumpy road we’re walking it takes strength courage to keep getting back up
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