Sitting here on my own looking at cards on shelf tears in my eyes cause there’s one missing. No gifts under tree, no sitting watching cheessie xmas movies cuddled up on settee. I wish i could just go bed and not wake up till new year . Everything seems magnified this time of year 
i sit remembering xmas gone by when we was all together laughing and feeling excited about the new year and what it will bring. Well now i know dont I just more heartache 
and never-ending nightmare. Sorry to put a dampener on things but i feel so sad today wish i was with Jim.
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I’m sat here watching my husbands favourite Christmas movie, drinking out of his cup and just wishing he was here watching it too. I haven’t sent any cards this year as I couldn’t stand the thought of writing just my name. I’m spending Christmas alone by choice and just can’t wait for it to be over. I normally love Christmas Day but it can do one this year. Sending you a hug.
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I hear you. It’s just a living nightmare. I had bought marks presents and my plan was go early Xmas morning to surprise him. Now l just feel numb xx
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Exactly the same. In tears. No tree, no cards, no Christmas presents, no love of my life. Can’t even watch Xmas films. First Christmas in 461/2 years on my own. Not a good feeling. Wish it was all over. Memories of Christmas old just magnifies the loss. Pain is unbearable. Thinking of all of you living through the same nightmare. Sending everyone love and hugs. xx
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Sending a hug to you too. Our loved ones are definitely with us.
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@Helen24 Thank you. x
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I echo everything you’ve all said. I just realised @StarGate that it’s the first time I’ve been on my own in 63 years. The house is so empty and quiet, there are no floorboards squeaking upstairs, just empty. No parcels to wrap, no trudging to shops because they didn’t fit. Life just feels so empty now.
I’m thinking of all of you xx
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@Mist2 It’s horrible isn’t it? How our life has changed not by our choice. All we can do is get through this festive period and at some point in the future we manage to live with our grief. Thinking of you at this time of the year. Sending you love and hugs. xx
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I know how you feel . Christmas is a time to celebrate . But not !!! If you have lost someone it becomes it time to have your face rubbed in it that you are now on your own . But brace up your not alone . All the best
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Life is a wonderful thing . But it can give and take away !! X
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That’s what l thought about today. He passed 10 days ago. I don’t want to leave 2023. I feel like I’m leaving him behind. It’s like torture xx
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I am sat here on my own, i have very muted decorations i did send about 25 cards mostly to Steves family. I have put up our last years cards to each other. Just need to get through it. BUT yes need to make changes for next Xmas. No children i have 1 guest for lunch tomorrow but have spoken to 2 people for a maximum of 10 minutes today. So lonely. Steve was a quiet man but I miss his presence so much. Getting ready to light my candle at 7pm. Hope we all get some peace tomorrow. 14 weeks since my lovely husband left. Its so raw. Xx good night.to you all.
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@SP60 I am so sorry for your losses. My heart goes out to you. I have no children but I do have an elderly mum with dementia who is not aware of my loss and ask me everyday where Tony is. I, like you find a sad that we will be approaching 2024. Don’t know what it will hold for u. Thinking of you and everyone on here going through this period and hope that we all find some peace. Sending love and hugs. xx
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Just me and the cats.
Christine and I enjoyed spending Christmas quietly together. A little tree in the bedroom and some decorations dotted around the house. But I have not felt the slightest interest in doing anything this year. Just want this period to have passed. I’ve got a few cards from close family and friends which is really kind of them. But they are all stacked in a corner, not on display.
Hugs and best wishes to everyone. x
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Hi @SP60
So sorry for your loss.
Being alone anytime is not great and at Christmas time it feels extra hard.
I am trying to convince myself it is just another day like all the ones i have got through these last few mo ths
I will be spending it alone with memories of last year when we were both in Australia at christmas and new year with family.
I just could not go this year on my own too soon to brave travel on my own.
Whatever or however you get through the day sending hugs
Lynne Xx
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Hi @SP60
I understand your point.
Sometimes it can just be a phone call text or even a neighbour who drops by on the day. Unfortunately society is not like that anymore. My husband was a caring person with a heart of gold 
and he would be the first to do this but not many of these people around now.
I have a brother and sister in law who have been no help or support and im basically left on my own to deal with things. I cope but sometimes im in pieces. Only people here understand or if they have lost someone special.
My friend who lives about 3hrs away phoned yesterday and she has said she will phone me on Christmas Day so at least one person to speak to.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow please feel free to message
Take care
Lynne Xx
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Me too. I lost my partner of 28 years very suddenly 10 weeks ago, and I have no family; he was all I had. Friends and neighbours have been wonderful, and very supportive, but have their families, and Christmas to celebrate. I can’t even switch on the tv; Christmas is everywhere, and he is nowhere.
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I totally agree with everything you have all said, and am feeling exactly the same. Knew it would be tough at Christmas, but far worse than expected. Like some of you mentioned, the lack of a special card, and the pile of presents, most of them daft fun things, but the house, and me are now so empty.
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Hi @Catrin1 @Wifey1
I am sorry to here of your recent losses.
For me it has been 7 months some days cope better than others but the pain and heartache are still there.
I thought id get through christmas and thd new year as treating them as ever other day i have got by without him but i realise its hard and not that easy.
But i miss his laughter his kindness being spoiled and looked after. Now having to do things and look after myself. The empty house is horrible and being alone even worse.
Anyway however you get through the festive time look after yourself
Lynne Xx
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Thanks @Galaxy75
Yes, looking after myself and the house now, and not doing a very good job of either.
Take care of yourself. x
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