My sixth Sunday since my husband of 52 years passed away. What is it with Sundays? I feel lost and lonely and dread every day, but for some reason Sundays are always worse.
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Ah my beloved Highbury! So many happy memories there 
. I used to go out with Tony Adam’s cousin Steve McKenzie, I live in Birmingham and he played for West Bromwich Albion. I love football, my husband was a Villa supporter, since he died they have a new manager and are now a different team, he would have loved seeing them in the Champions League. I hope he is watching them from wherever he is
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Let’s hope we both have something to cheer for.
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Sun today is my 9th Sunday my Ray died 10 days after our 52nd Anniversary. I try to keep myself busy on a Sunday, I have walked our dogs and done a bit of the H word this afternoon I am having coffee with a friend who was widowed 2 years ago. I fell into a habit of getting up and sitting doing nothing but gave myself a good shake this morning.
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Thanks Rose that’s a start.
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Hi everyone
It just goes on and on doesn’t it? This grief journey
I am trying/do try to move forward but it is just so damned hard.
I keep saying “I can’t do this anymore”
But I can and I am.
But its so painful.
I think @RoseGarden is right. The sad realisation that we are getting used to it.
A positive step? I hope so.
I need to move forward I can’t be like this forever. Roger didn’t want that for me.
I need to honour his memory and start living again like he wanted me to.
But its so bloody painful. How do you ever start a new life when all you want is your old one back. 
I pray that we all find the strength to do it
Love and hugs to everyone.
Liz x x
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I’m lost today. Like so many others we always did something together on a Sunday. It might have been golf, a trip to a garden centre, or just pottered round the garden. The point was that it was the two of us.
I’ve managed quite well for the last few months, making Sunday my allotment day. I’d go and work on the plot, and feel close to my lovely Jim. I’m going away in a few days and thought I’d give the allotment a miss. End of the season and not a lot needs doing. I’ve spent the best part of an hour searching for a small rucksack I put away in February because ‘I wouldn’t need it again, I’m not going away’ (sigh) Found it eventually. Now I don’t know what to do with myself!
I’ll probably end up making a batch of pasta sauce to freeze with the ripe tomatoes I picked yesterday. That was all the ripe ones in the greenhouse. Hoping the rest will ripen while I’m away, and I can do it all again. Maybe I’ll make a list…
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Good move. A list.
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My husband was a Villa supporter. Grew up in Solihull.
My son supports Arsenal and is watching the match today, apparently they are playing ‘ the scum’ today !
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At least we won today, I actually felt happy for a few moments. Day at a time, is all I am thinking.
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Even a few moments happiness is worth having. Xx
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Hi Rajay…I am at more or less at the same stage this painful thing called grief as you. My husband passed away 3 days after our 52nd wedding anniversary 6 weeks ago.
Also after being diagnosed with cancer just 6 weeks previously. I still feel shock and disbelief that he has gone. It all happened so fast. I try to keep busy but is so awful in the house by myself. I have never felt anything like this before, the pain and loneliness is quite unbearable. Keep thinking that I just can’t do this, it’s so hard to move forward at the moment, but I know I must.
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I really do know how you feel my husband died 2 weeks after his cancer diagnosis but not of cancer. He started bleeding and they couldn’t stop it. 2 days before his birthday and 5 weeks before our 50th wedding anniversary. Somehow you survive is all I can say.
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Suz my husband died 10 days after our anniversary 7 weeks after he was diagnosed with Bile Duct Cancer. I feel like a hamster on a wheel running but going nowhere. Sending you a hug.
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I live 10 minutes from Solihull and work in Solihull. Small world isn’t it?
Yep we beat Spurs , did my little happy Arsenal dance and more importantly got 3 points and 2nd in the league.
We have to take what moments of happiness come our way and build on them. It’s surving day by day, step by step
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When my husband died I suddenly lost all interest in football which has always been my lifelong passion but thanks to a friend who sorted me out a firestick as I couldn’t justify sky sports package at 90 a month, I started watching again and now I look forward to that part of the weekends again. I have to remind myself I am still an individual with my own interests and not just half of a couple. I knew my husband since I was 10 years old so it’s so hard to find myself again
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I swear by lists, it started when my husband died and I was in that horrible grief fog where you can’t function, I found lists helped me and still use them 18mths later
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I am a lifelong Gooner fan and I got myself a Fire Stick as I live now in Turkey, I can watch all the games now so I am pleased with that. Nice 3 points today.
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I have always used them. Essential in project management but also when suffering brain fog. I also used to do something when writing reports that made my colleagues laugh. Blank piece of paper in front of me. If I needed to clear my train of thought I would screw it up and throw it away. Not so effective when writing reports on a computer. Sometimes lists are the only way to achieve anything even if it is just getting out of bed.
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These days my carers are all I see. Except a friend who comes and cleans for me on a Thursday. I did have a visitor from age uk every Wednesday but she and her family moved to Korea. Now waiting for another volunteer to be allocated. My neighbours were great for the first year but now quite rightly have moved on with their lives though I can call on them at any time. Every 8 weeks I see my hairdresser and chiropodist. On Monday I have a physio coming to see if we can improve my mobility so I can get out. I have had to go private. According to the NHS I am not housebound as I can get out of the front door. I can’t get into a car or further than the front door.
Last time I went outside was January and that was to the doctors surgery for B12 injections.
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