Thank you. Today is turning out to be a tough one. Xx
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I understand. Yesterday I went into the garden and like you thought of us last summer xx
Big hug xx
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I feel this way also.
The schools are finishing up this week and we would normally be packing up to go away on a family holiday with my youngest plus whoever else wanted to come. .
Just canāt face it this year and just so sad that last year we were on our way to Madrid and the Costa verde, and had a wonderful time. Such good memories but now just sadness.
Hope everyone can find a little peace in something today xx
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Last Christmas was my first alone Peter died suddenly in our garden last summer.Anyway about the tree we always loved it so I put it up and was so glad I did it brought back many happy memories.On the day I didnāt see anyone my choice but I donāt have any immediate family.Itās too early to be worrying about a tree but I did too.
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September will be tough for me. We always went to Cornwall or Devon on the Thursday around the 7th.
Iām thinking of you all today and sending you love, hugs and strength
Liz x
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I try not to think about Christmas as when I do I dread it.
There are also other important dates before and after.
A strange thing, last Christmas I wondered if it would be our last Christmas together.
I donāt know why. I told myself not to be so sad and silly.
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One night, well, most nights, he was snoring. I couldnāt sleep and I gave him an extra hard nudge. He did stop, but then it came into my mind that one day I might give anything to hear him snore.
A few weeks later, just before his cardiac arrest in bed, he started to snore, not a normal snore, it was a horrible sound. Then he stopped breathing.
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Our brains do silly things donāt they.
We nearly didnāt go on holiday last year as Roger wasnāt too well (we didnt know then how ill he was)
But he insisted that we did. He said it could be our last one. I said donāt be silly.
Why did he have to be right?
Love and hugs
Liz x x
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Its the same for myself. And now it is sunny it is reminding me of our last holiday.
I do not want to go far from the house as I think i am leaveing her behind, thinking she should be with me.
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Iām the same. I went to my stepsons and fet awful leaving him behind. But I was going by coach so I couldnāt take him
Now I have a bracelet and a tiny urn with his ashes in so heāll always be with me
Sending big hugs x
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I feel like that, I am supposed to be going to stay with family in Weston Super mare, we did this every summer, I too am reluctant to leave our homeā¦It is all so hard to deal with, all so sad and heart breaking. I am only 7 weeks in how can i stand this for the rest of my life !.
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I think it will be well over a year befor I will leave the village for a day letalone a week or two for a holiday.
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This all sounds so familiar.
Sending you all hugs xx
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I feel the same. I donāt want to go too far from the house. Iāve been invited to go on holiday but I will be the odd one out without a partner. Iām not ready for all that as I think I will be sad thinking about him and wanting to be home.
Time seems to be standing still. I canāt think too far ahead. I donāt feel like me as something has died inside. I keep being told time will heal, however, it wonāt change the fact that I will need to learn to live with just myself.
Big hugs to everyone.
Liz x
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Donāt think about Christmas Rose,itās a long way off and you never know how you will actually feel until these dates arrive.I tried to ignore the actual day last year but I must admit it was a terrible day for me ,we had 38 Christmas days together and nobody could make it easier for me .
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I donāt even want to think about Christmas in 2 weeks time my lovely Chris would have been gone a yearā¦ he kept saying last year we need to get married as Iām going to be dead before my dad ( who was 101) of course I dismissed it he was only 67 my brain told me thereās no way his dad would outlive hereā¦ and here I am alone and missing our 33 years togetherā¦ you take them all for granted until there gone!
I have arranged to take all my kids and there partners away for the date he passed on the 8th I know I couldnāt cope aloneā¦and Iāve booked a holiday for me and my dog to Devon in Augustā¦ we never went away in August so the date felt safeā¦ always May, july and Octoberā¦ sending love to all on here x
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Well done for planning things.
Itās a lovely idea to take the family away on the anniversary.
Iāve already decided I want to take the family for a meal on Rogers birthday. In September
Thats the next big milestone for me and Iām dreading it.
Take care x
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Thankyou lovely idea 
Iām not sure what I believe but Iād like to think Rodger and Chris are with us watching
Keeping us safe xx
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Donāt overthink about Christmas -
itās six months away.
Deal with your "day to day " concerns - and take each step as it comes.
G. X
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