Thank you for your kind reply @Amylost. It meant a lot. It is so awful that we have to deal with this anguish, you are right it is a rollercoaster and it is a ride that none of us wanted to take. Hugs to you too. X
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@Jules4 Yes there just doesnāt seem to be a way back. I am looking forward to the distraction of taking the kids shopping tomorrow, 10 and 14 and Paul wasnāt that keen on a wonder around the shops, so it will be one of those normal feeling days tomorrow, fingers crossed.
Hugs back Mx
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@wong Yes . I donāt know why but Iāve felt low recently.Five months on .
I think itās the slow realisation that this is how itās going to be from now on .
Going backwards seems to be a trait for all of us several months on.
You have the distraction of work which I now wish I had.
I am going to do a volunteer job soon after Iāve moved house,Iām hoping it helps.
But as for cooking,? Yes I eat ok but have stopped planning ahead and really just look around see whatās there and cobble up together some weird combination.
Honestly I think the way forward will be ready meals and the microwave and no more food wasted .
Take care
Mick x
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xxYes, thank heavens for the take aways!!
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I agree the six months mark, not getting any easier, it might be that we have all been climbing this emotional mountain to find when we are getting to the summit only to find there is another one to climb but we are now mentally and physically drained. But we got up this far with the help of each other so letās pull together and keep going hard as it is.
Ron x x
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Hi gang,
@Mickp. Tried to ignore it, but wham, here it is another SBS.
This is a rollercoaster.
No doubt about it.
I am numb.
I function.
I am having a slobby sunday today.
Not getting dressed. Am going to watch TV.
Have a siesta.
Why? Because I CAN.
Tooth is still giving me gip.
Antibiotics finished. Am concerned the infection hasnāt gone.
I think because I am so run down, it hasnāt gone.
I eat. I drink lots of water, sleep all over the place, but lasting effects of this impact of this nightmare is taking its toll on me in many ways.
I am at the 6 month stage.
But for me, this is far from over. Still got the dreaded inquest, so how can I begin to put this behind me? I CANāT.
Limboland.
Anyway, am going back to my cave.
Sending love, hugs and strength.
Xxxxxxx
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@Bluecatmum77
Hi Steph.
Yes SBS ! We have let them come and go. We have no choice.
But having a Slobby Sunday for my money falls into the Being Kind to Yourself category.
Doing something that doesnāt tax the mind or body I call them my Netflix Days
We tend to think itās all mental and emotional strain but our bodies too take a hit in many ways.
As you rightly say your run down
Plus you have the added tooth problem 
So rest up today,recharge
We all know youāve still big hurdles ahead but weāll hold your hand throughout, be certain of that
We are family!
Lots of love 
Xx
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Sending love and hugs I hope you get your teeth sorted very soon. Certainly is limbo land. I wish I could give people on here some words of wisdom a year in I feel like crap most days but I do function better have few ok days suppose thatās a start to what is was like last year pushing forward but not moving on will be ever
Love to all
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@Bluecatmum77 have you tried rubbing orajel around the area where you get tooth pain? It numbs it and the relief can be immense. Tooth pain is agony. You can get it over the counter at chemists. Also try salt water swished around that area and spat out several times a day and use corsodyl mouthwash at least once a week, preferably 2-3 timesā¦ha ha I know these thingsā¦just call me Dr Wong! Have a restful day. You are often in my thoughts as we go along on this sad journey. Best wishes.
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Todayās reoccurring thought
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Watched this tonight. Made me cry but also helped a bit
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How very true we donāt move on but forward x
Hi misty, im glad you got comfort from your reading. I am thinking of going for a reading too x
@Misty1972 Hope your day also as kind as it can be .
Today ,Venetiaās Birthday,I travelled to Norwich Cathedral, a place we visited often when holidaying in Norfolk.
Venetia would always light a candle for her daughter Juliet,taken by cancer in 2013.
Last September she lit two,another for her sister Hazel taken 2019 by cancer.
Today I lit three ā¦ā¦
Not so much a religious act but more a symbolic gesture,and another reminder,
Lifeās not always fair
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Thatās really lovely Mick and if it helped you to get through the day as peacefully as possible then that was a good plan. Sending hugs
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Thatās lovely @Mickp. I think I will try and do the same when itās Dannyās Birthday . Itās a lovely idea and Iām not far from the Cathedral x
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@Jules4 Canāt explain it but it was something I had to do.
I feel a great sense of peace and achievement .
@KimG it was so peaceful there today. Dare I say not many tourists. So was able to spend quality quiet time to reflect and remember.
I plan as long as Iām able to go every year. But next year hopefully Iāll book a overnight stay.
Perhaps weāll meet one day and remember together
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If it worked for you then there is nothing to explain. Glad you found something that was ārightā.
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