I have a good family and friends support who are helping me through this tough and terrible time. I have a 10 month old granddaughter who is like a tonic. It still doesn’t feel real that he has gone though. 
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I totally agree with you re other couples. X
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My granddaughter won’t remember her grandad but we have lots of pictures with them both. And we will make sure she knows how much he loved her. X
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Hi Elm 68,
I am still grieving after twelve weeks. Like you I thought I was doing okay and then wham reality hit me.
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@Jennison1946 @flowergarden
I lost Jimmy the end of October last year to a sudden bleed on the brain caused from blood thinners and he then suffered a life changing stroke. It was all such a shock and completely devestated me! We had 25 years together but we’d known each other sincewe were 14! .i can’t believe 6 months has gone already!
We had no children together, so I’m now home alone with my little moggy who’s literally saved me. Life here is often unbearable, i talk to him all the time and am just learning to do things alone. I have some wonderful friends, but they all have their own families and lives so can’t be there for me all the time. So i go for walks, the garden centre for a coffee and even once had a wine in a restaurant while i was waiting for a take out Sunday roast! It’s now such a different life to what i had. I hate it 
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Hi Christina. It’s just so tough. I think evenings are worse for me when it’s just you alone in the house when you normally have the company of your other half. Even if you are not in the same room it’s just knowing they are about. I am just taking each day at a time at the moment. I cry most days as one little sets me off. I think sharing your feelings on here really helps and knowing others are going through the same things. Xxx
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Hi Elm 68,
Dealing with our loss is so hard. I live alone now, the silence is deafening especially in
the mornings and when I arrive home to an empty house
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Sable
Hello I am so sorry for your loss of Jimmy.
I lost Steve 6 months ago we’d been together for 40 years. I also say I hate this . He had no choice so I feel guilty when I say out loud I hate this. I talk to him but I’m hit with a wall of silence. People stop calling or now change the subject if you say how you are. Everything for one now . It’s so lonely . I’ve thought about that and realised until his death I’ve never experienced loneliness .
When I thinks of my life ahead without his love care and companionship it overwhelms me Sable. I hate it to .
Take care x
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I’d been with Richard since 1970. My two cats were born under next doors shed the year my eldest son died. I think they were sent to me. They’ve saved me twice now. I don’t think this overwhelming sadness will ever leave me but I put on that mask and carry on. I have to for my surviving sons sake. Sometimes I forget how much he’s hurting too.
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I just went on you tube and listened to this song. I couldn’t stop the tears, even after 14 months it still hurts to know he’s never coming back. So although I may appear to have “good” days it really doesn’t take much to trigger the tears. What a beautiful song.
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I know how you feel. My Darling wife passed away on the 29th of this month last year. I am finding it really hard and I also cry every day. I am finding hard to go out shopping because I still think she will be at home when I get back. I am so lost!
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Hello Jacste I’m exactly the same it was 1 year anniversary on Wednesday just gone May1st since my husband passed I cry everyday have a pain in my heart 24/7 
just can’t accept he’s gone very hard isn’t it
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Hi Jennison1946. It is absolutely awful, I really don’t want to get out of bed in the morning but the doggies need feeding and everything else that has to be done. The feeling in my stomach is terrible. We will get through it I hope, just remember the good times!
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Hi Jacste yes that feeling in the stomach is terrible and I do remember the good times and that hurts because it’s gone it make take a longctime but I do hope wecwill get through it you take care
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Reading all these comments makes me realise how many of us are all going through the same heartache.
People ask how im doing and i just say its either sink or swim 
. I feel like I’m paddling like mad to stay afloat!
We can do this, we have no choice and so good to know we’re all there for each other xxxx
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Hi Geoff, I fully understand how you’re feeling and offer my sincere condolences on your loss, its so hard . I lost the love of my life the day before Christmas 2020 so over 3 years ago, and I still talk to her everyday as if she were still with me, which I think and hope she is. Today is her birthday which has also been a trying day. Not sure when things get easier, I can have a run decent day or two and then out the blue something hits and I’m in floods of tears…could be anywhere. I really hope that things get a better for you soon. We’re all in the same boat so please dont think there’s anything “wrong” with how you’re feeling. Take care mate
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I’m the same Geoff,14 months for me.My first ever post,this reply
Kev
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Hi
I don’t listen to music,and can never watch Ghost again,probably my all time fav film.
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Hi
I’m a golfer.Got myself a kitten/cat.It helps a bit,early days.She is fine on her own now,when I’m at golf.
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Hello Forever, so glad you got a kitty they really do help you cope. They’re the reason I get up in the morning, even if it’s at six in the morning for they who must be obeyed breakfast time. I don’t think I could have kept going without them. Big hugs to everyone, find something to make you smile today. Sending this with love and hope for the future.
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