Hi Sheila hope all is well with you ,I seem to have been rushing here there ,went to theatre stayed in hotel over night ,got home my nephew came couple hours later to take me to London, up early next morning for the wedding it was very nice dispite the rain ,my daughter came for me early the following morning ,so here i am with her and Gareth and Jess in Germany, plus two dogs two cats .
I have Sheila been in a black hole ,can’t seem to climb out off it ,my Jess said last night Nan you look so tired I just wish that i could do something for you ,she jumped into bed with me and fell asleep I ended up getting up and getting in her bed ,when she was little she often slept with me grandad but she figits so much my Dennis always ended up in her bed ,I am sat in bed with my Daisy and Deano, all rest are asleep ,our daisy dog cuddles up to you just like a baby I love them both they keep we going when I am here ,and we go walking for miles .
I HOPE THAT your keeping okay and baby still doing well I have missed your messages so I hope to here from you soon my love for take care Teresa x x
Hi Sheila I once again had a smile whilst reading your message ,I to have no sense off direction ,I think it all them years off just holding our loved ones hand and just following them ,my Dennis always made me feel safe as did your Peter, well Mary my daughter could not pick me up last year ,and it was Stephen’s birthday ,and I have never missed on (he was twenty five on the second off may ) so my daughter booked me a train my brother took me to the station ,and my daughter rang me at every stop as there was seven ,when it got close to the last stop she told me to go stand in the door way ,and she would be waiting for me ,and she was ,I can now do it on my own but I was still bag nerves ,telling my Dennis alsorts sat on that train, I now go to London on the coach and Sheila picks me up at Victoria bus station Audrey my friend is very good with buses so we trot off all over I could not work them out without her .
I am so glad that your going to meet your daughter in law it will be good and you will get to know her a bit better ,I think that our age group are a bit afraid off being to pushy as we were brought up so different from today generation ,and I thing that some times they see us as bit snobbish and that it far from what we are .My daughter has been waiting for her bonus so when I got here my son in law said you no mar that you have always wanted to go to Hong cong and China
Well it all booked for 28 August and we are flying first class ,I almost ,had a fit, I would have much rather they had paid in on there mortgage, but my daughter said mum your only getting back what
you have given, so I suppose that I am very luck but I just don’t feel any thing most off the time and I would much rather be in a caravan with my Dennis ,I don’t know what he would make off all this wondering ,he say go my darling and enjoy but I no longer know how
I do enjoy Mary two little dogs they make me laugh they are such different caratures they came into my bed room last night and took most off the bed
Mary Gareth are having a barbecue tomorrow night for there friends not looking forward to that at all I will stay out off the way if I can .
I am glad you have brought new garden furniture, it will be very sad first time you go sit out there but you will be glad that you did ,I am the same I even broke one off the benches up I just could not look at it, strange the thing that we do I had to get Mary to take his
Writing deck as I could not bear to look at that either ,
Well Sheila you can look forward to a busy weekend with your grandchildren ,and then it will be nice to go and see your sons house it will be the first off many ,
If I see any more washing it will be to soon ha forgot how much washing four people make .
I did very well with my second outfit for the wedding my sister Bern rang me told me that Jacques verts were selling off some dresses so she took me to look and I got one reduced from hundred 30 pound to fourteen as they had just odd sixes left well I got to as got another wedding in September, the wedding was okay five hundred quest but with it being in the town hall I did not feel to bad and I just kept going out side and walking round the building much to Sheila horror ,to dangerous to keep doing that ha ha well Sheila that all my rambling have a lovely week and weekend my love for now Teresa xx
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Hi Sheila hope your okay my daughter son in law are having a barbecue I have had enough so have come in with Deano and daisy we are now all sat on the bed .
I left my phone ,and my address and phone book at Sheila so I have been a bit lost ,as my friends arnt on line ,and I don’t know there numbers with out it .
I had a bit off a panick today as I took the dogs for there walk and I got lost I throught I would come out near where l set off but I ended up no where near there ,I was gone four hours my Mary etc were all having a panick ,won’t be doing that again especially with no phone , I am sure my Dennis helped me as I eventually came to a clearing and I knew where I was ,it was awfully as I don’t even know there
Adress.
My granddaughter is a great history buff ,we once sat on the conservator steps whilst she read me some history project, she said did you enjoy that Nan, I said not as much as when you used to read me red riding hood ,time goes so fast and there grown before you blink .
What did you do when you left school ,did you like going to school,I hated it ,it was run by the nuns and they were awfully I started at four half ,and on my first day I got two strokes off the cane for not standing in the right line ,they would get sacked for it these days .
Hope you have a lovely weekend with your grandchildren take care my love for now Teresa x x
This made me smile 
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Me too! - smiling 
I now take a photo of where I park my car using my phone when visiting unusual places. I too left a building from a different door and became hopelessly lost! When I tried to retrace my steps I ended up in an even worse state! I then showed the photo to somebody who was able to direct me to where I needed to be!
What are we like…
xCarole
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Hi Sheila ,hope you have had a reasonable day and you have got what you wanted to get done in your garden ,will have to get mine done when I get back
I don’t seem to have stopped since I got here ,and there’s still great pile ironing ,my Dennis always did the ironing ,so I seem to have lost the knack
I bet that was an awful experience Fancy not taking there phones .
You would have loved where we were yesterday ,as you like history we were on the bridge that the dame busters flew over but for the live off me i cant remember what you call the lake surround ing it ,i could not get my self together at all yesterday i just wanted to go home and crumble ,nothing seem to mean anything any more ,i watch people smiling etc and wonder if i will ever smile for real again is there ever a day Sheila that you feel alive ,there are days more bearable than others but i am still not alive , sorry about the moaning . My to little dogs are sat on my feet ,well Mary dogs ,I just love them we go walking and I tell them all sorts they just look at me with the big eyes ,and think blimey she at it again ha ha .
It has been very hot here so we had barbecue for tea can’t say I like them much so just had bit chicken and salad .
My Mary has just been sat on the bed chatting to me ,she said she thinks I feel so bad as I am beginning to accept that her dad it not and never will be coming back,perpraps she right, there I go again .
When is it that you go to meet your daughter in law this week I hope you have a nice time ,is the weather good where you are. Hope to chat soon take care my love for now Teresa x x
Hi Sheila my messages don’t seem to be getting throught to you I hope this one does been thinking about you all day I hope all went well my love for now Teresa x x
I was one hour sending you a message and it kept saying posting but it diddent then I sent another and it did the same you were right about the dams take care my love for now Teresa x x
Hi Sheila glad your okay ,and you are getting your garden almost finished ,well not finished as there’s always something to do in them ,I got Mary finished today ,I was heaving bags chipping, keep telling my self I am getting to old for this ha ha but I still do it like you I still think I am twenty one in my head ,and am always doing things for people lots junger than my self ,be for I came away I cleaned under my next door neibours sink ,as she can’t bend down that far, and I can give her thirteen years .
I have these last few years started wearing sketches shoes ,I love them ,but I do also like hotters dispite only ever having had one pair ,
I do need some nice going out shoes with just little heel got lots nice sandals but not shoes ,
You are going to have a very full week coming up ,that will be nice as you got less time to think .
How fast when you look back all them years have flown ,if only we could go back and do it all over again heaven .
Mary and Gareth are at it already ,why do I have to go back ,I could stay here with them ,well I don’t want my couple off good friends are in there eighty and I like spending time with them ,and Audrey most people think that she in her sixty, and she has never taken a pill only for head ack now and again ,and I miss my Dennis whilst I am here as I don’t like him being in the house on his own daft I know but I can’t help it ,
And it’s lonely here there all at work all day so I have no one to talk to
Hi Sheila it has do e it again dame thing ,missed half off my message off ,fed up with it now ,hope you have a lovely week my love for now Teresa x x x
Hi Sheila, you must have been so tired to sleep like that ,I do hope that you sleep tonight I am sat in bed talking to my son ,he can chat for England ha, and one little Daisy dog fast asleep at the side off me ,what a strange world we now find our self in ,half here and half there I hope Sheila that you sleep well my love for now take care my love for now Teresa xxx
Hi Sheila hope all is well with you and you had a nice weekend with your grandchildren, I have had a job getting on here ,it kept saying press reload button ,well don’t know where it is ,bit thick wish I was as good as you on here any way I am in now .
It has been very cold here today ,I met my friend and went walk ing had lunch etc ,hope you have enjoyed your trips out this week ,going to a charity do on Friday eve trying to raise enough money to send young mum with three children to Germany, for treatment for cancer cant do any more for here here ,then sat off to see chity chity bang
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Well Sheila strange to be back home very quiet my Dennis still not talking ha ha ,I said to my daughter I have done some things since my den died but coming home this time we had three hour drive to
The airport ,got on the plane ,landed at Heathrow where Mary met some people and had two half hour meeting whilst I just walked round people watching ,we then got on fast train ,got off that went on the underground got another ride got off that got another at north circular that took us to Victoria where I then boarded a bus for a further four hours ,I eventually got home ,so I can say done it all in one day ha ha don’t recommend it ,but sure don’t get time to think .
Mary then had to get back into center off London for further meeting the following morning .
I think Sheila I have felt little better but I do miss daisy and Deano as they make me laugh ,my love for now take care ,hope to garden tomorrow weather permitting, it’s my birthday today I don’t go round telling any one much but I got home today to flowers choc and big balloons all over the out side Mary must have got someone to do it silly thing but it was nice chat again soon x x x Teresa
Ho love I am so sorry for you feeling so I’ll and on your own , you need to take it easy for a few day get bit off strength back .
I know what you mean about going to these thing ,I really just go so that I have at least been out for a few hours half off the time ,well most off the time I am not even listening to what there saying .
I do hope that your feeling better soon my love for now I will be thinking about you Teresa x x x
Hi Sheila your message made me smile ,and you are so right my next door neibour did it with her son and now feels ten times better he was gob smacked (my dad words ha )at first, but he now treats her with lot more respect ,and it’s now on her terms ,he has three children ,and there all to different women ,so they just all came went whilst she was at work ,she took all the keys back ,but desided to change all the lock ,and only has the children if she got nothing on her self .
Been very cold here today not got much gardening done as I really did not feel like it bit fed up with my self ,
I am so glad that you have took your life back ,not the one you wanted but your so right it’s our life .
Going to have my tea Sheila will chat later my love for now Teresa x x x
Hi Sheila your message made me smile ,and you are so right my next door neibour did it with her son and now feels ten times better he was gob smacked (my dad words ha )at first, but he now treats her with lot more respect ,and it’s now on her terms ,he has three children ,and there all to different women ,so they just all came went whilst she was at work ,she took all the keys back ,but desided to change all the lock ,and only has the children if she got nothing on her self .
Been very cold here today not got much gardening done as I really did not feel like it bit fed up with my self ,
I am so glad that you have took your life back ,not the one you wanted but your so right it’s our life .
Going to have my tea Sheila will chat later my love for now Teresa x x x
Hi Sheila I do hope that your keeping well ,I have really missed talking to you.
I’ve been having issues with my account, it’s not been letting me log in for about a month so please don’t think I’ve been ignoring you.
Everyone had tried to fix it and failed but my granddaughter arrived tonight and she has fixed it for me so I’m back online now thank God as it’s been so stressful my nephew even had a chat with Eleanor and she assured him that she had activated my account but to no avail as it still would not let me in .I can’t wait to here from you as I really have missed our chats ,hope to here from you soon ,and to here about what you have been doing my love for now Teresa
I am so sorry about your eyes ,will they calm down again soon ,I have been home now for weeks ,and as you say we are only passing time ,I just feel so broke and lost ,and I could easilie stay in all day ,I have had to force my self to go out .sorry for being so glum and I will chat soon take care my love for now Teresa xxxx
Hello Sheila I do hope that your eyes are a lot better are you able to take medication to make them better ,I sent you a message yesterday only asking if you felt better but I notice once again it has not gone throught take care Teresa x xx