Every day I ask myself why did he leave me alone, I miss him everyday and struggling without him.
I haven’t stopped crying since I lost him. Im just existing now not living just waiting for the day i can be with him again, the pain in my heart is unbearable.
Im on antidepressants help me sleep and get through the day (they help me with the sleeping but that’s it).
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Definitely go. I had my first face to face appointment last week, 6 months after my wife died. I cried like a baby from start to finish but I felt better for it. I have had previous sessions involving walking groups which have also helped. Maggies cancer centres are walk in and they’re also excellent. The important thing is you’re not alone. I’ve been taking those baby steps for 6 months now, and I’ll never stop missing or loving my wife, I’m definitely coping better. There’ll always be a bad day somewhere along the line but they will get less often I promise you. Buy the book ‘I promise it won’t always hurt like this’ by Clare Mackintosh. It’s helped me.
I lost my wife last year and started my counciling 3 weeks ago .i poored my heart out week one and week 2 i thought what do i say now but its amazing what you talk about .Just had my third yesterday and the empathy i gdt from my counciler is so heart warming .Replacing the sadness with all the amazing things we had achived together 
is helping.
And keeping busy had helped .Time is the healer .
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Poppet1973 you are so welcome with so much for the kind words l wrote to you and will be thinking about you if you need to any help to sent me message Lyndab
I lost my husband 5 weeks ago unexpectedly to pancreatic cancer. We had been together 40 years he was the other half of me. I haven’t had councilling as yet but organising all the paperwork has kept my mind busy. I just take each hour as it comes. I have collected him today from the funeral directors which has bought me some comfort.
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This morning I had my first councilling session, we talked about my beloved husband, our life together, his time in the army, how the hospital sending him home every time and not doing anything until it was too late.
I cried alot, and don’t know if it helped but im going back next month for some more councilling.
I was told he fought to be here but the cancer took over and his body was too weak to fight anymore.
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Sounds very much like my Sylvia. She was a born fighter but again everything was left until it was too late. She still managed to get out in a wheelchair and organise her own funeral etc. She only had 7 weeks from diagnosis but she still managed to get so much done.
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@Poppet1973
I’m going for my second counselling Friday. I’ve a bad few days. And I understand exactly where you’re coming from when you said the hospital kept sending him home. Same with partners doctor. Kept saying it was acid in his throat more Gaviscon. I got him to see another doctor. Who got him straight up to hospital. Like you said by then it was too late. He fought as hard as he could to stay with me . He was so brave right up to the very end. And now I can say I am so proud of the way he dealt with it. Unfortunately there is always someone left behind. Us. How I feel past few days I wish we could have gone together. We all miss our partners desperately. I’m glad we have this chatline. At least we can share thoughts and feelings with people that understand. Take care. Xx
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Thank you, being on here helps me get everything out and say how im feeling knowing im not alone in this.
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I’m the last person who would talk to anyone about how I feel but after my partner Ann passed away I ended up in the mental health hospital and they persuaded me to have grief counselling and after a few sessions I was surprised that it was helping me to talk about my grief and although it was a difficult thing for me to do it really did help
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@Boo2
I’m glad you got help. I hope it is helping you now. This grief affects us all in different ways. But one thing we all do know is that it’s horrible. Horrendous.x
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@Sparkle57
I too lost my Husband to Pancreatic cancer, eight months ago-after 11 weeks of suffering, such a cruel disease.We were together 34 years.
Im glad you got some comfort from bringing him home.
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Poppet so sorry for your loss. My counselling was at my local hospice. At first I wondered if it helped me as there were lots of tears and pain. But it helped me to process my grief without having to burden friends and family.
My counsellor discussed my first Christmas without my husband this was extremely painful and I sobbed but on the day having gone through this scenario I coped very well . I’m a year on now I am stronger and do cope most days. I still have moments of tears but it much less raw. It’s very early days for you but yes I do recommend counselling. I wish you better days to come
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Thank you so much, I went for my first councilling session yesterday, we talked about our life together and his days in the army.
I said that I keep asking everyday why he didn’t fight and was told he fought to the end as he didn’t want to leave.
She asked me how the kids were doing and said that they were doing better than me, they have there own lives and need to get on with them.
This pain in my heart is unbearable and I miss him so much and just want to be with him. I wish I could hear his voice (not on a video) just once and for him to hug me one more time.
In 3 days it will be 3 months since I lost him and it feels like yesterday.
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I lost both my parents in July last year 16 days apart, I’ve got great family &friends for support but at the end of the day I’m the one at night closing the door and alone,I started my group counselling journey this month and 2 sessions in and another 10 to go(only if I need them)I feel when I’m there talking to strangers helps me but its the next day I feel down but onwards and upwards
Take care everyone
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I was told that I would have 3 months of counselling and more if I needed them
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Hi
Forgot to mention my sessions are every 2 weeks
Paul
Where did you get your referrals for counselling poppet1973.?
My Gp referred me
Thank you Paul67