Hi Amy, so sorry to hear of your problems and there is no easy solution, if the antidepressants make you ill the doctor should advise you to stop tacking them and if they are causing you pain and discomfort it is not the correct one for you, would you like me to ask my Niece what she has?.
Unfortunately your Monday experience will have knocked you back a bit,prehaps your firm should keep you off the phones for know and give you only email and clerical work instead, light duties if you pardon the pun were you are not directly dealing with angry people on the phone, that is not good for anyone, in your situation and fragile state it should be avoided for know and you should not have been placed in that situation, at least with an email they are not directly in your ear or face with it and you can disconnect, to some extent(proberbly large) you are suffering from depression, stress, and possibly ptsd, I dont know what you sore regarding your mothers death, were you her principle carer for some time?, did you have long sleepless nights sitting up with her holding her hand ?, I did it all and alone for most of the time, my doctor knew I was ill when she came to the house shortly before last christmas and put me under the mental health nurse in the practice, my mother might have passed, but i walked with her every inch of the way and it was as much my calgory as hers and I suffered as much as she did, was it like that for you?, if so that explains why you are so low, do you have hypertension?, might be a good idea to ask the doctor for a full health check, blood counts the lot, your tiredness might be a slow thyroid or v12 deficiency, are you and your dad eating properly?, it is important that you do and you say your boyfriend and daughter are both ill?, perhaps she caught a bug at the toddlers class and gave it to your boyfriend, its probably nothing more then that, but as with any medical advice I give, if symptoms persist consult a doctor, I cannot even see the patient.
Try eating/drinking anything that takes your fancy, it will do you good, I suspect you are proberbly staying in bed and sleep is proberbly at the moment the best thing for you, I say get as much sleep as you possibly can, it will help you heel, both your mind and body need it and that will do more for you then any antidepressant, grief causes incredible mental stress and that is damaging to your health in general, sleep as much as you can and if it helps take a sleeping draft.
Delighted your Mr Robin is back and I hope that is a good omen, I will keep you iun my prayers, remember what I have said about food and rest, if you cannot take solid food then have hot chocolate or horlicks with na jot of whisky girl, it will do you good.
Blessings to all and get some rest, get the telly out off your room and sleep.
take care.
Timxx