Hi Tim yes you are right I live alone however since I moved back to Southend I do have some amazing friends where I live in retirement flats. I am the youngest here as you can be 55 and upwards. I have more friends than where I was in Somerset. There is a very good channeler on YouTube called Tina Spalding who channels Jesus. He got her to write a book, his authorised biography. He talks about his “missing years” that he had a normal childhood but always knew he had come here on a mission. When my late husband was losing his sight (macular degeneration) his other senses increased, especially psychically. He was an excellent healer and that’s how we met.
I wanted to post on here because I had a bit of a breakthrough. I had a nightmare in which I was hearing the smoke alarm go off (something I have been neurotically worrying about) and people were shouting and were in my room and I didn’t want them there. I woke up to realise the worrying I had been doing for 2 weeks was not about the smoke alarm problems totally. They put up a new one on Friday so I know it is ok. I had projected all my fears from the last year or so onto this small item! The fears I had having to deal with my sister who is a control freak and I had to stop her knowing where my Dad’s care home was and to take charge of the finances and his care in case she abused the money and care of him. I had to get power of attorney and get the money to pay for his care. I had to deal with her solicitors threatening me. Then when he died and we did speak I still have to be wary. I had to organise the funeral and the wake on my own and to collect the ashes on my own. There’s been a huge amount of responsibility since I moved back 2 years ago. So the fear is bound to come out in some way.
I feel I can handle it although I still get those nights where I am wide awake at 1am in a cold sweat! A good friend had some news about her brother in law passing away on her phone Saturday night. She knew what the message was about but she couldn’t pick up the receiver and listen to it, till the morning. I said I’ve done that with messages and letters. Sometimes you have to leave it till you can deal with it.
When you say about the Church’s attitude to mediums, most of them are a bit twitchy about it. What annoys me is how mediums are portrayed on tv and scientists who totally deny other realities exist and yet they know they do, because of the work of people like Stephen Hawking. I console myself with the thought they will know different when they pass to Spirit and eventually will see the non-physical world.
Hope you have a good day and it’s not snowing!
Zoe xx