You are right the shock to every one is immense.
Thank you it helps to know that this does happen, I just feel I should have know what was going on in his wonderful caring loving heart. So so miss Him and feel so so lonely right now.
Bless you for sharing xx
Thatās ok,
You are not alone, weāre all here for each other.
I know how you feel ,
Try and stay strong x
Just to say morning all hope everyone has a good day well as we possibly can, this lockdown is not helping me at all. Grieving n sat on your own not good whatsoever 
Morning Alex2,
Sending a big hug, itās awful isnāt it, as the days are going on it seems to be getting worse,
Weāll try and keep everyoneās spirits up by keeping in touch on here x
Oh stephtim itās horrendous you donāt know whatās real no more itās like Iām watching some film about a virus that happened god knows how many decades ago but reality is were actually in it. Timing is crap especially when your on your own trying to keep busy but thereās only so much you can do around the house isnāt there god praying for this to end Sending you big hugs xxxxxx
Yes it does feel like weāre in film , theyāre probably going to extend the lockdown 
itās bad enough for everyone thatās not grieving, but for us itās horrendous. Itās quite early days for you too, itās so hard.
So hard to keep busy aswell, itās a living nightmare. X
I hope they donāt extend it god knows what Iām gunna do if that happens really I donāt
Are you on your own at home? X
Yes and Iām not liking it as Iām never still always out n about with friends work my family the only time I get to see any of them is through my watsap video chat. Iām far to active Iām not one for sitting down Iām the one who helps ppl supports ppl now Iām so lost. my partnerās family have kept there distant for other reasons but I donāt deserve to be ignored they have lost a dad brother uncle I know that but they have each other to talk too Iām completely on my own. Iām a very very independent strong woman have been since I was 16 but a little bit of support would b nice xxxx
Hi Alex, I am like you no one with me and also always very active, I have been walking, lucky that I am in a village so can take walks without seeing too many people. The problem is I have walked so many miles I have major blisters so cannot do that any more 
. I really understand what you are going through trying to focus on anything is so difficult. Keith always said I was the strongest woman he had ever metā¦we are certainly being tested now.
Sending hugs
Jacqui xx
Some people are not very nice , you need support, itās the worse time to be on your own, especially like you say youāre always busy , seeing people , are you still going to work?
Iām also finding it so hard, we take things for granted, just to go out and do anything we want, I suppose we have to be thankful for FaceTime with friends and family, donāt know what will would do without that. X
Oh ladies itās bad isnāt it yes Iām still working but when I go to work I have my work head n face on as I canāt allow my feelings go get in the way of work. Not with my job I canāt Iām good at doing that though I have to. Iām coming home to stay in a friendās spare room which is really kind of her but not what I want after living with my partner for almost 20 years. All Iāve got left are the memories my furniture is on storage so Iām now saving up to start all over again sad sad hard times xxx
Itās so hard, to put on a brave face and try to be a different person in work and in front of people.
I was looking to get back into work before this lockdown, but going to wait till this is over.
Even in front of some family members Iāve got to act strong, I donāt want to burden them, trouble is , they say āyou seem ok, the worst is behind you now, you can get on with your lifeā itās so upsetting, but if I crumble and keep crying in front of them, they canāt handle it, you just canāt win.
It must be hard , putting everything in storage and starting again, not to have your stuff around you.
Thereās got to be light at the end of the tunnel hopefully for all of us, trouble is lifeās never gonna be the same again and thatās hard to live with x
Itās hard putting on a brave face but I have to or I would be crumble my boys know Iām hiding alot from them but have told them Iām going to be ok. They are also grieving they have lost a man who has been in their lives for 20 years. Itās a long long story xxxxx
It is hard to be strong especially in front of the kids whatever their age, at least we can crumble on here and let our feelings out, what would we do without the lovely people on herex
I know how you feel . Lost and so lonely. My husband died very suddenly 20 January. I donāt know what to do I just want to be with him.
sah Iām so sorry for your loss of your husband.
Itās early days for you, so heartbreaking.
We all have the same stories on here, the loss of our husbands, so we know how painful and lost you feel. The current virus situation it making it a million times worse as we are isolated from people, when we need them most.
You have found the right place on here, we always search for answers or some sort of comfort when we lose the closest person in our lives, and this site has helped me no end and also every one on here.
Keep posting, you wonāt feel so alone in your feelings, you can let everything out and thereās always someone that will get back to you.
Sending love
Steph x
Iām in the same boat. I lost my husband very suddenly and unexpectedly in February. The posts on here have helped me and I hope they will help you too. The loneliness is dreadful isnāt it but this site does show there are lots of people in the same position. I hope your pain does not last too long and that you can move on to taking comfort from the good memories. Thatās what Iām hoping for for me. Take care
Thank you so much for your kind words . I just canāt believe life will ever have any meaning. 28th March would have been his 60th birthday and 6th April would have been our 35 wedding anniversary . His birthday I just sobbed all day and Monday will be just as heartbreaking
Take care
Shirley x
Oh Shirley,
Itās so heartbreaking, I lost my husband suddenly in November, itās been 5 months now and itās still so painful, he was only 56, Iām 51, the thought of going maybe another 30 years without him kills me. I do have some days where I feel quite strong and think to myself, right I can do this, but mostly I just crumble and canāt see a way through.
I havenāt had to face my husbandās birthday yet or our wedding anniversary, but I have had my birthday since and I just cried all day, the first birthday since I was 17 without him.
I feel for you for Monday, itās going to be tough.
Take care x