Wish we could all get out be with ppl pitty we couldn’t have a covid 19 party like on Skype just so we don’t feel lonely 
im a way though i feel lucky because chip passed just before all this covid blew up so i was able to be with him and say a final farewell properly. I just wish it was all a bad dream. A party yes sometimes i want to be alone other times i want company but no matter what i always find myself wanting chip x
horrible isn’t it I hate it I’m still in shock xx
do you feel in shock or denial Alex. I know i was there when he passed and i know he gone but i dont think i have accepted it. i plod on as normal then ill see his picture and i sink. and i just look and think no not my chip. I talk to him i write to him i kiss his pictures but i still have trouble believing i wont speak to him or see him again x
Hi Alex2
It’s so early days for you, it must be torture with the lockdown, glad you found this site, we’re all in this together
Steph x
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Life is so unfair 
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it really is do you wonder whats gods plan, is this it or is this the beginning and there is more because otherwise to that i think its all just cruel so much pain and heart ache x
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I’m in shock Karie but that’s subsiding now I’m just so so fed up being on my own I can’t get use to it but I’m gunna have to get use to living alone I’ve moved back in with my dad long story so I’ve had all that going on aswell
I really don’t know, I just hope there’s something, after, the thought of not seeing him again is too painful to think. The wedding vowels -to death is do part , I hope is not true. I do feel he is with me, or is it cos we are constantly thinking of them every single minute x
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i am worried about living on my own too its like im scared of it. I have my daughters at home at the moment but its not the same. x
Steph its a terrible pain isnt it thinking thats it you will never see them again i cant handle the thought. I want to hug chip but im afraid it will be different i said to my daughter what if when we meet again i cant hug him. I miss his voice. I hope for all of our sake’s there is more then this x
Yes i feel jealous when i see couples together
Hi Karie, Sorry to hear you are having a bad day, me too, six weeks today that I lost my Jean and I still can’t believe that she is not here anymore.
Richard
i cant believe it either its so hard isnt it Richard. It been 5 weeks for me and i feel like it was ages ago but i also feel like chip was with me having a cuppa this morning my emotions are a mess. Its very early days for us Richard x
Mine is 14 days tomorrow 
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Yes , I miss his voice and smile, I can’t bear it, and I’m so scared the memories will fade as time moves on, I do think about being on my own in the future, my youngest daughter lives with me, but one day she’ll move on with her own life and I am so scared of just being On my own with thoughts of what might have been with Tim x
Alex very early days xx
Karie, It is the loneliness that I am struggling with
I know hard isn’t the word