Five weeks is nothing, still so raw, it’s getting on for five months for me but still feels like yesterday x
Alex2, Thinking of you.
Richardxx
Alex, the early days are so hard, just finding the strength, you’re in a state of thinking you are gonna wake up it can’t be real x
Steph
your not alone my love and we are all living in fear of one thing or another. I said to my daughter i was scared for when they move out but she said she not going anywhere just yet, but even if its years away im still frightened. I miss being able to turn to chip and moan about something on emmerdale. I lost my best friend as well as my partner. I think your best thing is to make a plan of things you and Tim would have liked to do and then try and do them if he is with you he be there anyway spending that precious lost time with you x
I do feel horrible feeling like that but you feel jealousy and hatred for life itself x
Richard my heart goes out to you it really does and if i could, i would come and have a cuppa with you right now. I do have my girls at home but honestly i feel lonely too. It doesn’t matter if your alone or with a room full of people You will only want Jean x
Hi Richard,
Reading your posts, six weeks, still very early days,
Your jean sounds lovely
Steph x
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Karie, I wish you could do that, I am breaking point with life at the moment
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we are jealous of everything im jealous that there are people in there 90’s still alive ( and good on them )and active and chip barely made 60. i know its wrong of me but i cant help it. i find myself adding how many years chip would have had left if he had just made it to that persons age. I feel robbed and i know chip was same as you and your Tim. we are angry and mad and why shouldn’t we be
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Richard i wish i could to i think you need some company right now and someone who understands x
Thank you so so much that’s so kind thank you xx
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Thanks karie 
x
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Hi Steph, I know everybody says the same, but she was the kindest person you could have wished to meet, and I miss her so much
Richard
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bless your heart Richard you loved Jean so much didnt you x
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It’s lovely to hear all about her on here.
We’re all feeling the same, it good to talk to other people in the same boat.x
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Karie, You have no idea how much I loved her, I know I shall never get over this.
Richard you wont get over it there no way you will just learn to live with her not being there. You will always miss her and why not she was the love of your life. But you will be ok, we all will the pain is tearing us apart at the moment and just want it to stop but the pain is there for a reason because we loved and we were loved back x
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Lovely words Karie your such a lovely lady it’s times like this I wish my 2 boys were at home you bring them up to be independent but when they move out it’s like hang on how’s this even happened n why. I’ve been a mum since I was 17 ,god I wish they were stil at home but they don’t even live in this country which makes it even harder 
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Alex thats so hard for you. I hope you have other family around x
i really not coping today i miss chip so much x