i know Steph now i feel so empty x
it’s so hard 
There’s no way really to cope with the awful feelings, they just flood you and there’s nothing you can do. I hate it cos it can’t be shrugged off like a bad mood , it just hurts so much, all I can say karie is we’re all here with you xx
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Big hugs Karie and Steph it’s so frikin hard 
Hugs back how are you Alex x
thank you Steph i thought i was doing so well but the past 2 weeks have knocked me for six i cant see life with out him i dont want to. I dont want him to miss out. Alex i know we are all going through the same pain but do you ever think it just you your pain is worse. i feel locked in inside as well as out. All these emotions all in my chest area i think it is true there is such a thing as a broken heart. it hurts all the time now. At the beginning i thought ok i can cope with this but now omg i was so wrong. Thank god for this site sometimes its just a relief to get those feelings out
I really think the feelings that I had at the beginning are what you are having now. Like you say you said ‘right I can do this’ and you put your organising head on and kept busy and now the shock of it all has hit you properly now. I know what you mean when you said that everyone’s going through the same but you feel surely they can’t feel as bad, I also feel like that , I know everyone is suffering but my own pain feels so deep it does make you feel you’re the only one .
And it is physical pain , the heart actually hurts, pains in the chest, bad headaches, all the stress and anxiety of it all is horrendous. A broken heart really does feel like it’s broken .
It really feels like torture, now six months on , I have ok days where I feel quite strong and days of pain and sadness, but at the beginning for me the pain was constant and I thought , I can’t live like this for the rest of my life, and now I have the odd ok ish days it’s better to cope with.
Sending love Karie xx
Thank you for your kind words Steph weird thing is it seems like ages ago but only yesterday it hasnt been 2 months yet. The pain is constant and i cant get away from it. Its a constant sadness. its the same with me Steph i cant see me being able to live like this part of me has gone. I know deep down we all feel the same pain but its hard to think someone else is feeling this and i find it hard to believe people can get through it. I know they do but i cant see anything ahead of me x
It’s such a horrible feeling , but you will feel differently in time , it’s still so recent for you , I’m four months further down the line, I know everyone’s different and grief hasn’t got a set time, but you will have the odd days again of not feeling too bad. We are forced and thrown in to this new way of life that we don’t want, but we just have to carry on and live without our lovely partners, I hate saying that, but we have no choice we will all try and get through this pain together and hopefully in time the pain will ease .
I know it will get better but at the moment its hard to believe. Its nice to have someone to talk to thats understands. x
I know what would we do without this site.
How’s your new doggie getting on, without the pets we just would rot in our beds all day x
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he getting really big. the last two days he been a naughty boy. he needs a good long run i think
Oh bless him, i bet he takes a lot of feeding x
he eats everything lol
Hi Karie and everyone, Not been on last few days, not been very well bit better now, maybe the medication, but just reading your posts Karie, don’t know why but this last week I have been the same feeling terrible, awful mood swings and the feeling of grief overwhelming, just wanted to give up and not live like this, just don’t think I want to be like this on my own all the time is killing me.
Richard x
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Hi Karie, I have said it before and will say it again you must stop being so hard on yourself. You are only weeks along and must not expect to be finding any sort of relief from your grief at this time. It is a raw feeling of helplessness, so many thoughts and emotions will be rushing through your mind.
I am over a year along this terrible time and have found that there is a light at the end of the tunnel from time to time but that grief is always with me although I am starting to lead a life again.
Please don’t struggle to expect anything of yourself except to grieve and accept.
I now accept that I can continue to lead a life but that I will always have this sadness with me. I accept that it is now a part of my life. I accept that I will cry and feel lost and alone at times. But I also accept that I can find things that give me enjoyment and can even smile again. My grief will surround me but it will not rule me.
Please do not try and rush yourself out of this feeling of such raw sadness and loss.
xx
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Thank you everyone tonight for your support, I don’t think, 9 weeks tomorrow I lost my Jean, and nobody gives a Fxxx, thank you so much, yours Faithfully.
MR Richard
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Richard, everyone on here is in the same position as you, we have lost a loved one, we are grieving, we have days where we can barely cope ourselves.
It’s unfair to expect that you will always get a response. You do visit the site very regularly even if you don’t post on this thread, and there is a wealth of support there for you if you take the time to read other threads and perhaps interact with them too.
This is how I found my way of coping.
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Well said, SanW
Mr. Richard, you must learn not to be so self-centred in your grief, as SanW has said, we are all grieving for our loved ones. Sometimes it is hard to reply to some posts, you will have noticed, I hardly ever respond to you, it is so hard being without my beloved Stan.
You have had some lovely replies showing compassion and concern for you.
MaryL
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I’m sorry Richard, but I do agree with everyone else. We all feel your pain, all this is a living hell for everyone. We are all here for you, but we are suffering too x
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