Ive just finished tonights letter to Roger. I did cry but not so much. Maybe I’m improving, maybe tomorrow I’ll be in floods, but it does help,somehow.
I hope you do find some comfort, I do even when it makes me cry
Goodnight Rose, sleep well
Liz x
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I have just returned to writing the journal/letter. I was crying so much as I wrote it.
Then a memory came into my mind of a time before we were married. So I started writing about it.
I felt as if I was back there and felt such joy and love. I felt so close to him and he felt so much closer to me. It was a wonderful moment and feeling.
I’m crying again but I am so glad I was with him one more time x
I will keep writing in the hope that I will feel he is with me again x
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I slept a little bit last night and I dreamed Peter was doing the lawn. He made the lawn look sooo beautiful …. it was totally green …. and I was sooo happy . Then I woke up and … instantly realised …. that Peter was actually dead . I cried my eyes out again … and went from heaven to hell .
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So very sorry. Such a painful experience. Like losing him once more.
This is such a cruel time in our lives.
Thinking of you x
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This is all sooo sooo Crazy !!
It just CAN’T be real !!!
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Rose garden are you able to eat ?? Drink? Sleep ?
I have 24/7 nausea and fatigue. I can’t eat can’t drink can’t sleep. I’ve already lost 46 pounds in just a few weeks … I’m down 4 sizes.
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Please please start to eat, you are going to make youself ill, and I’m sure your husband wouldn’t jwant that. I am eating, nothing tastes right but I still eat. And you really must drink. Have you got any family or friends to support you?
Take care
Sending hugs
. @Liro is right you must eat and drink.
I manage to eat and drink something each day, not as much as I did.
It’s not always healthy food. It’s usually something quick and easy but I eat something.
In the beginning I would take 2-3 hour naps when I could. Now I try to sleep at night. Some nights are better than others.
I have stomach trouble if I get stressed. However, this has decreased.
Physical symptoms such as nausea are linked with grieving.
Lack of sleep and food and dehydrated will definitely affect your physical and mental health.
Have you seen your GP?
Please try to eat and drink something each day.
Take care of yourself x
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Hi @LCat I couldn’t eat at first everytime I tried I could only eat a small amount. If I ate anything I would feel nauseous. I lost nearly three stone but have started to put weight on again but now eat rubbish. Will have to start eating more healthily. Take care.x
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As long as you can eat … you’re ok …. even what you call eating rubbish is very likely ok. All this stuff in the internet … how to eat healthy . That’s what is rubbish … the nonsense on the internet is the only real rubbish.
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The first thing I started eating was bananas. Don’t know if you like them?
That was the easiest convenience food I had in the house.
Big hug xx
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And definitely one for you xx
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Yes i agree, bananas are good soirce of vitamins to help build you back up. And anything rlse that to fancy. Little and often and you’ll get there. But please try
Thinking of you
Sending hugs
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Good morning Liz,
hope you got some sleep.
Rose x
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I am trying. Took my dog to the vet for a check up but got upset when he expressed his condolences. But I kept it together, just couldn’t speak.
Now back home and I’ve had a delicious breakfast…
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