Thankyou so much Doreen.
I thought I was çoping with Friday,
who was I kidding?
Another ‘first’ to get through.
I shall take your hand. Thankyou
Love and hugs
Liz x x
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Dear liz and all you guys help me out
I have drained the wine in the cooler.
I knew there was more in the garage so when I went in there it was wine posh stuff I had bought
For him at Xmas.
I opened it out if it’s study box and put it in the
Wine cooler.
I opened it and felt so bad to even think of doing that
I started to have a glass and I felt I was choking.
I have just had another glass tonight it is horrible.
am I wrong to drink his special Xmas present
I have had a really bad week and this has just
About finished me off.
Love Doreen xx
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Just woken up.
Tried to help Tony eat…
Heartbreaking
Night, night xx
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Will be thinking of you today, Rose. Sending you huge hugs.
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Thinking of you Rose .
Sending love and hugs xxx
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Thinking of you Rose
Here for you
Love and hugs
Liz x x
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Good morning everyone
I hope you all slept well
Rose you are in my prayers today
We are all here for you
Love and hugs
Liz x x
Hello,
in the early hours of today I thought I knew what to do.
Tony was finding it difficult to eat.
I opened different pouches for him and I think he had a little bit from each.
I got him cheese and ham and he ate some.
I gave him some milk and he drank quite a bit of that.
He still wanted more food, so I tried oxtail soup then a little bit of tinned minced beef.
He ate some, so I warmed up the mince with a little bit of oxtail soup and he had some of that. He really seemed to like that
It wasn’t very emotional as he was finding it difficult to eat but wanted food.
He kept on looking up at me as if to say ‘You can find me something I can eat.’
So I thought that this might well be the sign that the time had come.
As he was also unsettled.
I then came up to bed and brought him with me.
Lately he has had short cuddles,
He actually stayed with me for four hours, cuddling me and sleeping some of the time.
He appeared calm and relaxed.
He even started grooming himself.
That surprised me as he had been having difficulty with his food.
So I don’t know what to do.
The difference between Tony eating and Tony later on in bed is huge.
I am totally confused and worrying about what to do.
I am in tears.
I don’t want him to suffer but I don’t want to rob him of the precious moments of love and comfort he so enjoys. Yes they are precious to me as well but how can I deny him love?
He has shown me so much love, how can I deny him the same.
He still wants to live.
How can I deny him a life?
Even one with difficulties but also with love and comfort.
Truthfully and bluntly, I feel guilty that I will take a life away from a family member who found such joy and adventures in life.
I feel I am killing him and I don’t have the right.
Any thought or advice?
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Oh Rose
I really wish I could help
If Tony’s not in pain then maybe just showering him with love for a bit longer will be the right thing for both of you
Here for you
Love and hugs
Liz x x
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Thinking of you Rose….such a hard time for you…and Tony ….
Take it day by day and hour by hour……if he is managing to eat something maybe he hasn’t given up yet either……
Sending hugs for you both and lots of love xx
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Morning all I am late today didn’t get to bed until 3.30.hope everyone is feeling ok,it’s sunny here today although chillyXxxx
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Good morning! Another bad day … people seem to think I no longer need help and should be ‘moving on’ - what on earth does that mean?!! Sorry - feeling sorry for myself …
Rose, a hug to you and a cuddle to Tony. Must admit I wish I had a Tony at the moment!
Hazel xxx
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Morning Rose,
Again I am so sorry, decisions like these are never easy,but you will make the right one,
Good luck today.
Love Ron.xx
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That is what I have decided to do.
I am going to try and give home the best time possible.
He deserves that so much
Rose xx
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Big hug xxx
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Thank you.
I am going to try and get the best time.
I am a a big baby and worrier so I am going to try and be a grown up today
Big hug xx
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Morning Ron.
Sunny and quite mild down here. I presume you were up to 3:30 getting used to your new device.
Monsoon supposed to be back tomorrow and very windy so hope your wig is well glued on.
Sandra
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Try to give him the best time xx
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Rose. You will know when it is time. You will not let him suffer.
Hugs to you and strokes to Tony.
Sandra
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Sorry it is a bad day Hazel, please don’t apologise for saying how you feel. I hate it when I get asked if I have adjusted to my new life, it is only 3 months since the light went out of my life. I hope the swamp doesn’t get too tight a grip on you today. Sending you love and strength to get through.
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