So glad you posted as I think it’s been awhile. I was going to stop posting at one stage too. But we all need each other. I was like you in the respect my husband had to go for blood transfusions and/ or chemo regularly. We would joke with the nurses. Most times I would drop him off as I work. But sometimes I would go in with him. I used to do codebreakers with him but I can’t concentrate to do them now
Keep sharing when you can
Linda glad you are staying but also had the courage to say you were thinking of leaving. It shows you were thinking of all of us so you aren’t really in the swamp if you think like that!! Xxx
The sudoku thing is not stupid. Norman and I used to watch countdown and play along everyday. Haven’t been able to watch it since he died. Only just started watching university challenge again. We both used to give a number of questions we would answer. This is after 16 months.
Xx
Sandra
Its really not silly not bring able to do suduko without him
I used to make greetings cards, mainly decoupage.
Roger used to help me. A lot.
Especially with the Christmas cards.
I won’t be making any this year. I may not make them ever again.
It hurts so much
Rose, you’re giving Tony so much love and care……he sounds like he hasn’t given up yet and is still enjoying his life with you…….
They give us so much love in the time we have them………and love us unconditionally.
Thinking of you and Tony…….and sending you both huge hugs x
Our daughter dropped by to join me for dinner.
Now I know I’ve dropped a pound or two.
And her comment was you have gone from a b to an a cup now dad,cheeky bugger.
Rose,
Please don’t leave the group….we’re stronger together……you are one of us and we help each other through. When some of us are down there is always someone to offer you a hand out of the swamp.
You’re not weak….you’re going through this bloody awful time ……and you’re still here. You are Tony’s strength now……and you are still going on and getting though the oh so hard days…
Don’t give up……we all understand……We want you here……don’t leave, we will all miss you and your thoughtful posts that cheer us up.
Things can only get better Rose…hang on in there….with us. Xxxxx
We have been out twice today
First time I carried him and second time I carried him and then he wanted to get down. So I placed him down on the pavement and he shot off across the road and into someone’s back garden!
So I had to go in and get him back.
Sadly, his chin is quite swollen and he has some difficulty eating. However, each meal is a taster meal. Different pouches opened for him to try.
He snores, belches and dare I say it, farts. Still love him!!
He has just got up off me and is exploring a different part of the house xx
Hi all,
I have been sat here reading all your words to each other and it has made me realise that this forum is the best thing since sliced bread.
Everything i have read…apart from the wine…i dare not start down that road as yet, i don’t know if i could stop and i have a job i cannot afford to lose.
Like many of you, my cooker has not seen the light of day for quite a while now. My Colin…21st july last year, my heart broke. I have no one to cook for, both children are grown and have their own houses, it is just me and Brian(the cat) now. I have just had my second birthday without him, this isn’t how it is supposed to be. I said this to my friend. I said, we were supposed to live the rest of our lives together.
She said something that hit my heart so hard, it was almost physical pain. She said
" You did not get the chance to live the rest of your life with Colin, but he got to live the rest of His life with you."
Oh my God, did that not hit home.
Sending hugs to all.
Nicky
Liz you’re off early tonight. Hope you’re ok and have a good sleep dear friend. xx
Rose /Linda , I came on here tonight and read your post about leaving and I felt sad. I don’t want you to go.
I’m in a bad way too. I don’t know how to carry on from one day to the next I loved my darling man with all my heart and we spent every second possible together. I miss him like crazy. Cant bear to part with anything of his and I tell him I love him all day long.
I’m scared to be honest. Really frightened that I can’t seem to do anything if I’m in my own. If I go out or meet up with someone I’m ok but as soon as I’m on my own at home then the worry sets in. I don’t seem to be able to concentrate on anything more than a few seconds. Given up reading and now not really interested in the TV. This group makes me feel part of something.
All of us knowing how awful it is. You’re not bringing anyone down. We’re already there. What you and the others do I to make sure we’re hanging on to someone.
Please don’t leave.
We can cope with all the emotions here but we need the laughter too. You’re a lovely lady please stay.
Lucy xx