Well, being a voluptuous 18 year old blonde, I teeter round in stilettos, mini skirts and sequinned boob tubes.
It’s bloody cold mowing the lawn like this.
Xx
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RoseGarden
Sorry to hear about your fall. Like Ron said dont do too much if you have a concussion. I just turned the page on my calendar - I put photos each month from the previous year. There is a photo of a big family dinner & it’s getting close to the time he was admitted to hospital for his 2nd pneumonia of that year. I didn’t think he’d make it out but he did. We had about 6 more months together. I wish I could go back in time.
I took find it hard to buy something new for myself. My heart hurts still from missing him.
Glad to have this space to share and be understood. And not to be judged or given cliches.
Xxx
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Thank you so much for the mental image of you mowing the lawn 
xx
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This grieving certsinly changes everything doesn’t it.
‘Things’ don’t matter anymore.
I know what @RoseGarden means about being alone when you’re used to being looked after
I’ve been laid up for a couple of days. It’s hard not having Roger here to look after me.
I suppose that’s selfish but he did used to look after me if I was unwell.
He looked after me if I was well.
He just looked after me. And I miss him 
Big hugs
Liz x x
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Now that would pay to see🤣
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Photos keep popping up online of my husband.
They really start the tears.
Hopefully, in time they will bring more smiles than tears.
Sending a very big hug,
Rose xx
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It will be my 2nd winter without my husband Greg and will be his 1st anniversary next Tuesday which I am dreading. Life can be so tough. Take care everyone xx
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Thinking of you and sending a big hug.
Rose xx
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Good luck for Tuesday I hope it’s not too grim.
Big hug Ron.
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Will be thinking of you next Tuesday
Everything is so tough now isn’t it?
Love and big hugs
Liz x x
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You are so right Rose Garden. We kept things “for best”. Why do we do this.
I was looking at a crockery set we bought. Dinner plates, tea plates, soup bowls, pudding bowls and mugs - all with a matching poppy pattern. Because of the pandemic we couldn’t have visitors and so all these lovely things remain in the dresser - we never used them and now Bill never will.
On our last outing to the garden centre in April he bought me a top and trousers and I got him some shorts and summer shirts. He was always saying to me “if you like that, I’ll get it for you”. His new clothes are lying on the bed and he never got to see me in what he bought for me. 
I have no interest in anything anymore. It’s all so pointless. Like you say, a wardrobe full of clothes, some “kept for best” but now no-one to dress up for. I spend most days in what I call “working clothes” - jeans and a jumper. Only change into better jeans when I have to go shopping.
Please don’t tell me it will get better. It won’t because my Bill is never going to be here. I can’t share anyrhing with him. I can’t go out with him. I can’t buy him things, things I know he would like. I would have given him the world if I could. I love him so much.
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We’re all here with you.
We all understand
Big hugs
X x
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Next Tuesday will also be the first anniversary of my husbands death. Even though the awful shock has worn off the grief is not getting any easier xx
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I shall be thinking of you on Tuesday too.
Big hugs x x
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Will be thinking of you as well. It is the emptiness and loneliness. Doesn’t seem to get any easier xx
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Will be thinking of you too
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Just sat thinking it’s coming up to lunchtime,in later years neither of us had big appetites,so on most occasions it would sandwiches,one of us would just say lunch and both would go into the kitchen,I would make coffees she would make sandwiches,she would say do you want………… and I would finish the sentence with yes please and just grin at each other.
Now those moments are worth more than diamonds.
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Dear Harriet,
exactly the same here with crockery.
I started to use 2 plates from the service before my husband died.
They are back on the shelf with everything else.
Also a dress I bought when we went shopping and have never worn.
I bought a pair of boots that I said to him I would wear on a special occasion, not worn.
A new shirt he never wore is still hanging on the front of his wardrobe.
I am sure there are others on here who could write the same.
Love and a big hug,
Rose xx
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Hello everyone been trying to catch up as I have been at our daughters. Yesterday was very emotional as it was our grandsons birthday, 7 of us went out for a meal usuall there was always 8. When we got there the table was set for 8 that nearly broke me but I had to hold it together. Today I collected my new car which was also emotional, it is the first time I have bought a car by myself, I hope Ray approves.
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Hope you still had a nice time,
Don’t upset me and say you got that Porsche.
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