Dear Helen20,
it’s a real nightmare, I do agree! I’m so glad that I’ve found this forum! It has been a year and I’m still struggling to survive. I tried to build up friendships, because here in a foreign country I have no family and the two best friends of mine live 10 000 km from me. Many friendships were fake, some of them are still here for me, who knows how long, because they didn’t meet this kind of loss. People have their own lives, families and bonds and I still feel like a stranger here. After a long year I started selecting them and stopped begging for help where I wasn’t able to find it. God bless this forum that I’ve found today!
Janka
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Good morning Helen please tell us that you are well 
We are all worried about
Praying for you
Tom
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Dear Janka
Welcome to the group no one wants to join.
I am sorry for your loss. All of us here have lost a loved one so understand the nightmare you are going through.
Losing friends is also something a lot of us know about. My two closest friend I have not seen since my husband funeral. I contacted them a few times but then gave up,
Talking really does help. Do you have a bereavement group nearby? I went to a few before finding one where I felt comfortable.
This group has been a lifeline for me. Post your questions, rant or just chat everyone is so helpful.
I hope your day goes okay, take care
Helen x
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Dear Helen20,
how‘re you doing today?
Did you manage to catch some sleep?
All of us are thinking of you, sending strength your way.
Please take care of yourself, try to drink and also try to eat something, alternatively some high-calorie energy drinks.
Your body needs those nutrients and the calories.
Your hubby is looking out for you from up above and he also wants you to take care of yourself.
Please take care!
Kind regards - Joe
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Hi @Janka
Welcome to this group
Sorry for your loss , and being on the journey none of wanted to be on . I am 7 and half months into this rollercoaster of a grief journey. After losing my husband to a heart attack. It’s hard trying to make new friends. Sadly it all too common for friends to drop away from you . I lost count of the number of times people have said I’ll meet you for a coffee only for it never happens. I attend a bereavement cafe which I found helpful. Is there anything like that in your area . We all understand on here as we have all lose someone. Look after yourself
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This wonderful group is the first thing I turn to every morning. We are all here supporting each other.
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Yes me too
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Hi Helen, I hope you have managed to eat and drink somethimg. You have to look after yourself. Thinking of you
Wishing you all the best
Tom
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Hi @helen20
I do hope you’re feeling a little better, when you are ready I hope you can post on here to tells how you are . sending hugs to you
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Good afternoon Helen, how are you feeling. Have you managed to eat and drink something.
I hope you are feeling a little better today 
thinking about you 
Wishing you all the best
Tom
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Hi Tom and all you other kind people that are asking after me. Ive just had a bad couple of days, couldnt cope with the world so stayed on my bed cuddling my 2 old cats, the only things keeping me going through this nightmare. Anyway, I have had 2 fortified vitamin drinks today, washed my bedding this afternoon, and are now sat with my cats out on the front porch. I have had various phone conversations with different mental health “experts”, none of who have suffered the loss of a 44 year exclusive relationship with a soul partner, after I queried them when all they ever suggest is anti depressants, joining bereavement clubs even though I tell them Ive never been a club joining type of person, or even evening classes, or phone the samaritans if all else fails. The only good advice I realise comes from you guys, I must have read every post for the last 4 years on here, and it is the only thing that resonates with me, because you guys actually are living the nightmare, unlike the so called trained experts. So thank you again, all of you, if it wasnt for your kind words and stories of how you are getting through I don’t know where I’d be right now. Thank you all so much. xxx
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Hi Helen
It’s good to see you back here. Please keep posting, anything at all. Someone here will always be along with a suggestion. They really are a special group x
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Dear Helen,
thank you for letting us know how you are doing.
I‘m out of words regarding your experiences with these „experts“, I do understand that you are very disappointed with the answers you got from them.
I know that it’s very, very hard to be brave but that’s what you need to do as good as possible.
Good thing that you’re taking these vitamins, in addition to those you need some high-calorie supplements in order to supply your body with nutrients, protein and energy.
Please take good care, you hubby is looking out for you from up above and he also wants you to take good care of yourself.
He is patiently waiting for your reunion, which will be for all infinite eternity.
Please take care, stay safe and keep us updated!
Kind regards - Joe
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Thank you Joe, I cannot wait to be with Norman again, but I realise I have to look after myself especially so I can keep looking after Puss Puss and Treecat.
You take care as well.
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I agree Helen, I really feel this group are life saviours. xx
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So very pleased you’ve made contact Helen. We will always be here for you. Bonnie.
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Thank you Helen for posting you have lifted a great weight off me I was so worried about you. Please keep on posting we all want to help
Thanks again
Tom
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I promise I won`t do anything silly Tom, as long as you guys are around.
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You have made my day. Helen I am so pleased you are ok 
Wishing you all the best
Tom
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Dear Helen,
please stay in touch with us and keep your promise of not doing anything silly, not just for us, but especially for Norman and your kitties.
I wish you a good and restful night!
Kind regards - Joe
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