I know you said ! Honestly its ridiculous the way the world has gone ! Kids telling parents how to behave ! Ha ! As if we couldve done that with our parents - as you said we would have got a thick ear !! Xx
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@Ladysuisei6
While we are grieving every little thing seems to magnify and affect us 100 times more than it would otherwise, our mental state is so fragile right now so we really should be allowed to grieve in peace. People are just thoughtless honestly!
Take care & stay strong 
xxx
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@Angel1309 thank you for your support.
Well I am fearful that my entire life is spiralling out of control here . Since my partner died I’ve been in free fall . What I couldn’t bear is estrangement from my son because he has unreasonable expectations of me whilst I’m struggling. I cannot understand where the compassion is . What should be a joyful time which might have helped a little bit ( the arrival of a much wanted grandchild) has turned into an absolute nightmare and potentially is making me much worse . After an entire year of such intense grief I hoped the clouds would lift a little bit , however, life seems to be getting much worse which is a terrible worry ,
Sending you love 
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Thats so true … we are still so fragile arent we - even 14 months on for me because our world has been turned flipping upside down. I wish some people would understand that… especially our own kids … its so mean and so thoughtless … xx
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Deb5 .my sister in Leicester really turned against me after my gorgeous wife sue passed away .i appreciate wendys husband passed away in may last year. But to say at least you knew sue was going to die was an absolute horrible thing to ever say.i don’t have anything to do wendy now at all.cant ever forgive her for it
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Good grief, that’s awful. Some people, even if we are related to them, can be so insensitive.
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Try not to blame him. He doesn’t and cannot understand how you feel.
This journey we are all on is horrendous.
Some of us cope better than others but we all feel the same. Try not to resent your son because one day he will know how you feel and he will regret saying those words to you.
Big hug 
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Yeh but mine are my kids … bit harder situation but hear what youre saying ! And what a stupid thing to say !! X
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@Ladysuisei6
Not at all we are all here to support one another. No one can possibly know exactly what we are going through until it happens to them.
So sad that you can’t get any support from your own flesh and blood but please stay strong and keep sharing. I myself find such a relief whenever I feel at my lowest and need to express my feelings on this site - thank you all for reading my post.
Sending love and strength x
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9 months in, I am still not the person I was, one step forward then 5 steps back every week is the same story - I am so exhausted
Take care xx
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@Deb5 i know - I’m a month behind you so 13 months . Saw my son today actually cheeky bast@@d said my behaviour since I lost Baz has been thoughtless, selfish , I’ve been hurtful to him and his wife and I won’t be forgiven. I asked him what do you expect to happen when grieving someone you love so much - life’s bloody awful . His response was you should just be sad 
I felt like giving him a slap 
. That’s what a 5 year old would say “ mummy’s sad “ . I do think he’s got a personality disorder. That’s showing such a huge amount of ignorance about what really happens when you lose your husband. Sad doesn’t even cover it
Sending love
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@Angel1309 thank you for your support. You are right , life is just like wading through treacle or feels like the lights have been switched off . My son actually said I ought to just be sad . Sad , be buggered . He’s no idea . He is 31 btw . I’m furious by his behaviour
Take care xxx💔
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@Martyn2 oh no that’s such a terrible thing to say , no wonder you are estranged. Family can be the worst I tend to think after reading posts on here
Take care xxx
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@JackieJ well it’s pretty difficult not to resent him because as well as being intentionally cruel , his insults are delivered with various expletives . He’s totally self centred and because he’s unhappy with something I said to him last August , I’ve been banned from having a relationship with my only grandson due in March. This is because he’s vindictive. I will forgive him if he changes his mind but the loss of a beloved partner suddenly and unexpectedly is really destabilising isn’t it . He told me he expected me to be “ sad “ . He’s 31 years old not 5 . This is the most traumatic experience I can possibly think of it’s awful isn’t it ,
Take care
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@Ladysuisei6
I really can’t understand what’s going through your son’s mind - what’s wrong with him? No compassion what so ever .
Stay strong 
x
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@Angel1309 i know the feeling of a few steps forward then going right back again .
I won’t be the same either . Ever . This has ended my life , I love him so much xxx
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So sorry that you having to deal with this behaviour. Our road is hard enough as it is. This group have given me strength in knowing that only us who have lost our partner can know the sadness we face on a daily basis.
Not sure of your age or location but try and make new friends. Do things outside of the family and know this group understand you
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@JackieJ well I’m 59 and in Wales . This incident with my son has been so upsetting. I have a few friends but when my partner was alive we just spent our time together. We didn’t need others . I don’t know your situation either I’m sorry .
Yes this group is a lovely safe space . Everyone is so kind , whilst at the same time not wanting to be on here
Sending you love
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God you did well to keep it together @ i wouldve said bugger off !! And get out of my house ! Lol … i have decided thst thry dont grow up until theyre maybe 40 … theyre just like little kids ! Youre right ! Xx
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