I lost my Mum on 8th December. I was her only child and she was a single parent all my life so we had a very close and intense relationship.
I have a partner but we don’t have any children. Since my Mum passed, I feel that I have changed forever and I will never be the person I was when my Mum was here. I also feel incredibly alone as there is no-one who loves me like my Mum loved me and there won’t be anyone here for me as I was here for my Mum. I’m not being self-pitying but it’s just a sobering thought that there really isn’t anyone. It really does change the way you view the world and yourself.
I miss my Mum so much, it is getting worse. She was part of me and I still can’t believe she isn’t here. Every day I wake up and it hits me again as if it’s new. I do feel as though I’m going insane with grief, it’s like a tidal wave that keeps hitting me and you can’t go anywhere with it, nothing eases the pain.