It’s 8 months today since my world was turned upside down.
I lost the love of my life, soulmate, and best friend very suddenly and unexpectedly.
I can’t actually believe I’ve survived this long without him. Grief has changed me as a person, in all my 61 years I have never felt such sadness and despair.
I now worry about everything and every one who’s close to me, I always had a little bit of anxiety but now feel anxious all the time.
I have cried everyday since losing Pete, he was my whole world and I’m trying to carry on as I know that’s what he would want me to but it’s just not getting any easier, it’s completely exhausting and recently I’ve found myself sobbing to a point where it really hurts my chest.
I’m not sleeping very well and just lie in bed every night with my heart pounding, I’m so scared to think about the future and just want my old life back.
I have changed as a person and find I panic if anyone suggests doing anything social, I feel safest at home with my memories and I know it’s not good for me.
Anyone else feel this way? And will it ever get any better?