I feel so low at the moment. I am seriously considering resigning my job. I just don’t see the point of it anymore. 
I was at that point and I have reduced to three days a week and filling in my other days with adhoc work and volunteering.
I agree there is little point in anything at the moment but maybe that means we should not make a big rash decision could you go down to less days ?, i just about make it through the working day then i collapse , but i can as i know that i have a two day break before i have to go and finish off the week. I know i had stopped work I would be further into the depression that is setting in now, but we are all different.
Low low low i feel it too try and feel the sun on your skin and breathe you need a break you are exhausted and processing make time for a min or two in the day to rest your thoughts if you can.
strength for today you can do it keep posting it helps
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I feel like I can’t talk about how I feel as it’s nearly 10 months since my mom died. It feels like it is getting harder each day to be further away from her. And then the new about my mother in law has knocked me for six. I can’t take anymore time off work and I am the only person who does my job. No one will do anything if I am not here. It is a lot of pressure.
i know its not quite two months for me and people do not want to hear how i feel, but you can on here let it all out. The extra pressure of your work is not good for you i would try and compromise on it if you can.
toy Lynda
morning Becca just checking in to see how you are
Hi @olive3 feeling pretty rubbish. I am out on a school trip and my anxiety is through the roof. I hate it. How are you?
That sounds tough .not long to go for you hopefully
I’m hiding and getting thro
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Home now, but I have a busy weekend. I just want to chill and sleep.
try and chill and sleep even if its just a little,x
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I feel like I have become a selfish person, I feel numb to life. I don’t want to see people, I don’t want to talk to anyone, I used to care and be thoughtful. A friend has got a promotion at work and I feel nothing. Normally I would send a little gift of congratulations. But I just feel nothing and I hate the way I am.
you can only give so much, this is transient and you need to be kind to yourself.
I am off to see my cousins, one of them is over from Australia and this will be the first time I have seen her since my mom died. We’re taking a price of my mom’s jewellery for both of them. My head just feels overwhelmed at the moment though.
I think that surrounding yourself with others is good. Yes it will be hard but it will be so good to see them and how lovely for them to have something of your mum’s.
Just go with the flow there are no rules and you are stronger than you know.
Grief is love.
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So my MIL had her appointment with the specialist today. He sounds like he was so vague. He doesn’t think it’s thyroid cancer, as she doesn’t have the symptoms and it looks ok when he put a camera down her throat. But there are lesions or something in her thyroid. He doesn’t know if the issues with her arm is connected as that isn’t his area, there are spots on her lungs again that isn’t his area. My MIL refused a biopsy so we are still clueless. And specialist said to go to GP if symptoms get worse. So now she’ll have not support because we don’t have an official diagnosis. This is all so triggering for me. I can’t cope.
Do you think your mother in law would at least go back to the GP to discuss next steps? Even if she doesnt want a biopsy, theres two issues that this specialist hasnt been able to advise on, so perhaps she needs a referral to a different specialist? Then at least those issues might get addressed, and the thyroid can be monitored in the meantime. 
I know theres an advantage to medical professionals having their speciality, but i know from experience with mum that when theres not an obvious diagnosis it makes things so much harder, as you have to try and get access to so many different departments and it all feels so disjointed 
She doesn’t want to do anything unless symptoms get worse. I just feel so stressed and so confused. Unless she has a biopsy we are not going to know if it is cancer or what type it is. I have to just try and accept that this is her decision. She won’t have access to anything without a diagnosis. And I dread things getting worse. I have so much fear in me at the moment.
Hi Ally I was thinking the same thing maybe the GP could at least explain things better and refer on is needed?
Maybe just give her some time and space to absorb everything- the appointment was only today, she may feel differently after having time to digest everything. I know its stressful and triggering for you, because its out of your control but as you say ultimately you know it has to be her decision. 
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She is 92 and doesn’t want anything invasive. I have to accept that. It’s just really hard. I am broken and feeling really depressed right now. Nothing is making any sense 
Hi, how is everyone?
Been quiet on here as I am struggling with my mental health. I miss my mom more than ever. My life will never be the same again.
I am just so tired of it all
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