All any of us can do is take it one day at a time.
I am sat at work and have just burst into tears. No idea why, I guess I just want my mom and for all of this to just be a horrible dream
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I’m thr same some days alm i do is cry for no reason at all it’s just the missing them that’s soo tough 
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I need my mom, I need her to make things feel better.
I did a presentation to the governors at school tonight, then they asked questions and I feel i didn’t answer them right and made myself look stupid. I can’t get passed that & I am in bed crying. I miss my mom, I need her.
I am in a really negative head space, feel like I am not good enough at my job. Not good enough as a mom, wife. I feel rubbish.
Im sorry you’re feeling so rubbish Becca - how are feeling today after youve had time to sleep on the presentation- did you get any feedback at work today? Presentations are stressful so if youre feeling vulnerable, THEN caught off guard by questions i can totally understand why you came away feeling shell shocked and in hindsight we can always think of better answers . Please dont be so hard on yourself - im sure if your mum was here she would say the same.
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Feel rubbish today, didn’t sleep. No feedback at work. So I guess it’s ok.
It’s just put me in a negative head space. I have a counselling session tomorrow so can talk it through.
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Oh Becca, don’t be too hard on yourself, did the best you could do. Tomorrow is another day, sending hugs
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I am having really bad day. I dreamt about my mom last night, she was alive & then I woke up 
My heart aches for her, I feel so far away from her. I want to hold her hand, hear her voice, smell her.
It’s not fair. I am heartbroken every single day.
I feel the same way 
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It’s been a bad day for me too. Hugs.
I’ve felt the same today too. Ive had dream where she was alive, when i woke up wanted to go back to my dream 
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I had the most awful sleep last night. I dreamt my mom came back to life, because that’s what I wished for. But that was selfish of me braces she was suffering and then she died all over again, but I’m a more peaceful way.
I just can’t get it all out of my head. I saw my GP yesterday & talked about stuff and how angry I am. So I need to write it all down everything to try and get it out of my head.
I am very un settled at the moment, i don’t see a future for me in the schools where I work. I have worked so hard, building my department ip from nothing. Every time I get an email from the person that got the trust lead roll, I feel angry. I cried yesterday at work.
That must have been so difficult Becca seeing your mum suffering in your dream, and losing her yet again
Do you think you will look around for a new role? Maybe a change is what you need and would help you feel more motivated? The only thing i would say to bear in mind is that going into a new role or new work environment can also be stressful- only you can judge whether you feel able to handle that at the moment But theres never any harm in keeping your eyes open for new opportunities as im guessing they might not arise that often in that type of role?
Thanks @Ally6 , I feel so sad. Been a tough couple of days.
There aren’t many roles like that, not much doing. I don’t know if I want to go to another school. It terrifies me, but I have worked so hard to get where I am through many struggles over the last 7 years. I feel let down. I have a line management meeting on Monday and I will be letting them know how I feel.
I have changed because of losing my mom, the void she has left hurts so much. All they see is me getting on with things. Inside I am sad & lost.
Yep, sad and lost describes how im feeling too. As you say, it changes us and we wont ever be the same people we were. Good luck with your meeting tomorrow 
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I sat and sobbed at 10pm last night with my husband. That meant i didn’t sleep
Well. My head is all over the place. Trying to motivate myself today. I did get up for a swim, but the pool was closed for repairs.
Oh how frustrating when you made the effort to go for a swim! Yes i shed a lot of tears yesterday and even resorted to opening the Baileys 
I hope today is a calmer one for you