All I want to do is sleep. I am so exhausted. I am back at work tomorrow, don’t know how I will get through it.
I just think it brings some comfort to me when I visit my dad and probably brings some comfort to him when he’s sitting there he can see her photo etc, he talks to her which actually brings tears to my eyes I don’t think we will ever accept she’s gone forever which is the saddest part as I know she’s not coming back I just hope as I grow old myself I never forget the memories of my mum I hope I have my memories till the end
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Maybe just have a quiet word with that person and let them know your not happy that what you had talked about was private and personal and they shouldn’t have repeated it.x
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Morning all
How we doing today ? I’ve had a couple of better days but I think it’s kept myself busy
Now I’m with a quiet day the minds thinking … 11 weeks today since my mum passed it doesn’t get one jot easier the years are still flowing : I still long to hear her voice and see her beautiful smile .
I find it hard to believe the pain will ever ease and I know from losing my dad 5 years ago about grief but this feels different
She was my mum 
x
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It will be 10 weeks tomorrow for me. I lost my Dad over 20 years ago and so like you, i know that at some point the pain eased but I cant remember when/how and it doesnt bring me any reassurance this time around. When we lost Dad i think we threw all our energies into supporting Mum as her health got worse, finding her a new home etc, so it still felt like the core family was still there.
Im planning to spend my first night back at my own house this week and feeling really nervous about it. It just feels like im “leaving” mum back at her house, and in her final year she needed someone there all the time, so i just have this picture that shes still there sittting in bed on her own with no one to look after her! Have put some pictures of mum in the lounge and will take some of her bits so i hopefully i feel shes still with me.
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Morning All,
It’s just over 4 months for me since my mom died. I miss her so much, I am just utterly exhausted and want to sleep all day. But we are going to a friends for lunch.
Back to work tomorrow and I have no idea how I am going to get through it. But I have to. M
12 weeks for me today and it doesn’t get any easier each day I get up and it’s just another day without my mum, I’ve already had a cry this morning, someone I know has just lost her dad yesterday he was on the ward next to my mum, when my mum was in hospital, her mum died about 6 years ago she was my mum’s best friend and work colleague, just brings the day my mum passed flooding back, my biological dad died in 1987 and although it was upsetting I never saw him everyday so I got over it and I have a great stepdad who helped raise me, but losing my mum has really shocked me to the core were I used to look forward to things, I now can’t see the road ahead I just want to forget the pain I feel inside everyday I just want to shut my mind and my thoughts off, it’s just constant every minute of every day i just see my mum and even when I think of all the good times the heartbreak comes flooding back.
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It’s quite clear we are struggling with our recent losses maybe some in different ways but all have the same heartache and devastation that losing our mum/ dad has caused
It’s truely so sad and I have tears in my eyes writing this . I keep going back to constantly what she would be doing right now in heaven I hope she’s happy and and pain free
As most of you know we still haven’t had a cause of death for my mum but the coroner called me Friday and they are working on cases around my mums passing now so we should get a verdict earlier than we thought as she said around the end of the month
I’m dreading it x
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I too know it’s possible to live with the pain, but I don’t remember how I coped, it’s mostly a blur, and like you it doesn’t reassure me now. It actually makes me miss mum more again. I think I focused a lot on dad back then, the way you did with your mum, and now there’s no one to focus on anymore. 
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Maybe it’s good to get it earlier? But of course you’re dreading it. I hope you get an answer that gives you some peace. 
Yes you’re so right . I had mum to support and vice versa when dad died … now there isn’t that person as much as I have a big family it isn’t the same . If someone had said to me 5 years ago I would have lost the both in 5 years I wouldn’t have had it . It’s so hard to accept as I’m sure you know
Yes of course getting the result quicker might be better just descending on what comes back
I hope your doing as well as possible today x
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My sister in law and brother have just been round . She’s made this for me out of flowers from my mums funeral .
Really upset me but I love it
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Beautiful! 
And so thoughtful.
That’s lovely my sister tried to make some but ruined the flowers can you ask her how she managed to do it without the flowers shriveling as we tried a rose she said it wouldn’t work.
Oo yes let us know please, i dried some delphiniums from the casket flowers so i could do the same.
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I don’t actually have any flowers left from her funeral now as she didn’t have a clue what she was doing and I never thought I could of pressed some but never mind and I’m not going to get upset about it I can always get another rose and do it.
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You could always just press some of her favourite flowers or something from her garden that reminds you of her? 
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She loved her home made garden front and back it wasn’t very big but it was beautiful and always in bloom everyone who passed the house commented how lovely it was but as she was confined to bed I wasn’t able to maintain it as well as work and look after them both as well as my kids, so I’ll have to wait for spring to come now see if any of the flowers re-bud and I’ll take it from there.
Yes of course I can . I’ve sent her a message so as soon as she replies will let her know . Im
sure my brother said she dried them inside a book or something then brought the mould and covered them in resin and let them set I believe
I love it just when I was thinking people aren’t as hurting as much as me they come round with that . X
Honestly your mum sounds very similar to mine she absolutely loved her garden front and back and was out there all day prior to being poorly . Like you people would comment how beautiful it was but as the dementia got worse she lost interest so I did my best to maintain it for her x
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