Aww thanks it’s annoying as I’d just started to settle, feel less anxious was sleeping better was getting over the side effects of the medication then this last week since new just year just feel anxious again, I don’t stop still enough to try meditation but maybe I can now kids are back at school maybe just take an hour out of my day just for me might see if I can find a class somewhere that I could go to rather than try do it myself x
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Sounds like a good idea Lucy. Very important to find even just 15 mins of quiet time for yourself in the day. Everyone keeps saying to me small steps, so make sure even the little ones you take, you recognise as positives, one day at a time
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I lost my mum 8 months ago the grief I felt for 4 months has been replaced by depression and struggling to cope with the feeling of how much I miss her I’ve got a lot of regrets as I didn’t get the chance to talk to her before she passed and also anger at the treatment my mum and me received at the hospital
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Hi. So sorry for your loss and it makes me sad to hear that you and your mum experienced bad treatment at the hospital. Several of us live with the trauma of that too and it’s hard having so many regrets. 
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Hi and welcome to the chat
Sorry for the loss of your mother I really am .
What I have learnt since being on here is it’s a common theme our loved ones have been let down by the nhs .
I know it isn’t all of them but just angers me when I see them striking for more money knowing how poorly they treated my mum x
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Maybe being back at work will give you some routine a little at a time, maybe I should take some of my own advice x
@Phillips3064 so sorry for your loss. It’s so hard to come to terms with. My mom died 4 months ago and it just feels so unreal. She was let down by the NHS & I am no in the process of compiling a complaint.
I hope you find this chat helpful. We understand how you feel.
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I filed 3 complaints as I wasn’t happy with the 1st or second reply still not happy with the 3rd reply they even got the date my mum died wrong on the 3rd reply I still haven’t decided whether to reply back my mum deceived better as does yours
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It’s so tough. My mom deserved better too. No one deserves to die having received bad treatment. It’s so hard to process and come to terms with.
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I don’t know if I am back in ‘denial’ mode or just relived Christmas is over. I just feel strange like nothing has happened.
Oh my gawd. I hope that that was his lame attempt at humour but, either way, I’d be tempted to put in a complaint!
I’m just here to say that, as much as I regularly try to rationalise it, and tell myself that loss is part of life, I just really really really miss my dad, and wish things weren’t the way that they are.
Over the past 5 years or more I’ve literally dreaded losing him. I’ve looked at him with pure love and adoration in my eyes, and with absolutely no hint that there was any reason for him not to live to 99 (like his dad), and felt sad that one day I would outlive him.
My dad 
It will never be OK, that if he had been seen by a GP (rather than a trainee clinical practitioner) he’d still be with us. None of this will ever be OK. They took my dad 
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I can’t request his medical notes until we have probate, which I can’t do until we’ve valued the estate (almost done) but once I have them, you bet I’m filing for medical negligence. My school friend’s dad died in his 60s due to negligence at the same practice.
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But, in other news, I broke the news to my line manager that I won’t be returning this week, and she was amazingly supportive. She said that she’s sorry for my sake that I don’t feel ‘fit’ and she said she’s pleased that I’m prioritising my mental wellbeing. 
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Great! That’s how it should be.
But I’m with on not being able to rationalise it. Loss might be a part of life, but that doesn’t make you feel better about it. 
I wish there could be real consequences for medical negligence, not just a talking to or some team meeting. But I figured, when I sent in my complaint, that at least I know the doctors will have to read it and I hope they will feel ashamed.
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You’re right: loss is one thing, but traumatic loss is altogether different, and can’t be rationalised.
Exactly: complaining sends the right message/signal.
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Hi Lisa, I’m feeling the same. I lost my Dad in July last year and thought I was coping quite well but Christmas and New Year completely floored me and I’m now suffering from social anxiety and struggling to function. I feel Ive taken a backwards step. I’ve been off work since Christmas as can’t face it.x
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Hi can you tell me about how much does it cost to get this therapy .
I really need it, I think , but worry about it’s costs.
Just a guidance …
Thank you .
John
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And that’s the support right there that’s the support you expect to get from your boss, it makes you feel less anxious I’m glad your taking the time needed, I’m going into my 3 rd month off now and although we knew my mum was going to die we couldn’t accept and so we couldn’t make any last memories with her as she was unwell which really made those lass few months really horrible and now she’s gone I’m still in shock I sit here by myself in tears wondering how I’m supposed to live my life without her as that’s what I have to do now, I have to accept she has gone, I have to accept I’ll never see her again only only in my mind or from her photos which are everywhere. I have to accept a new way of life now with out her being the centre of our family, I need to start to rebuild a life now and the hardest part is accepting it all and that’s the bit that’s stopping me going forward acceptance, how do I do that because I havnt got a clue I’ve just woke up at 1.30 am to go the bathroom and I’m sat here crying my eyes out they to make sense of the last 6 months and how in that time she got her results and now she’s gone.
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Don’t know about private therapy @Johnathan2204 but talking on here is free, so let it all out we are here to listen and help if we can as little or as much as you want or need to say we are all here to offer our support if we can my name is Lisa and I lost my mum 12 weeks ago to cancer, she had battled for 26 years from the age of 60 it had taken so much of her life and ours that just when we thought she had finally beaten it was dealt the devastating blow that it was now terminal and was given that dreaded prognosis 6-12 months but only lasted 12 weeks the trauma that she endured in the follow up to that prognosis and the time she had left was very traumatic for all of us an something we thought was not going to happen did, we lost our beautifull mum, my best friend my whole reason that I exist x
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I lost my mum in April last year and same Xmas & new year has brought me crashing down again I feel so numb and lost it’s like when she died a piece of my heart went with her and has left this weird feeling inside of me I feel so depressed and don’t want to do anything