I am the same, I just see her in my head as the day she died. It is getting better, but it’s a process. We are dealing with trauma. Your counsellor will help you with this.
I just have no motivation or energy today.
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Yeah it’s not nice that’s not how I want to remember her that’s not the image I want to see every time I close my eyes, so I’m wondering if the happy pills will block that image out of my head, I hope your going to be ok today, I’ll check in later see how your doing I better go get myself dressed or I’ll just sit here all day xx
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I am counting down the minutes until I finish.
Just take things on thing at a time. You could talk to your GP about anti depressants, it may help.
I had one increased before Christmas and I do think it has helped my mood.
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I hope they help you. I’m the same as you, takes me hours to fall asleep then wake up in the early hours, Dad’s final weeks dominating my thoughts on a repetitive loop…then struggle to get up the next day. I’ve just started antidepressants too.
It’s so hard to get those thoughts and pictures out of your mind.
I hope the anti depressants start to help soon.
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Thanks Becca_d, it gives me hope that they’ve helped you. They make you feel worse at first don’t they? I had a terrible few days.
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Yea, you can feel worse for a bit before they kick in. But they will start to help. Have you got a follow up with your GP booked? Try and speak to the same one each time. That can really help.
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Yes, I booked a follow up in Feb. How long did they take to settle, as it were.
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I’ve got antidepressants but I’m scared to take them x I got them back in November but I’ve seen what anti depressants can do to some people and I don’t want to be dependant on them x
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You could take them but keep in touch with your GP. They aren’t like old ones where you become addicted. They may just help you a bit.
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Couple of weeks to settle. But can be 4-6 weeks to feel the benefit.
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I have been on line for 6 years, i didn’t want to take them but I had a massive mental breakdown so needed them to help. It we needed antibiotics we would take them. Only you can decide thought.
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Yeah just I’ve never taken them before I always got on with my problems but in all these years I probably could of done with them to be honest as I’ve allways masked how I’ve felt for years behind a smile I’ve never let anyone in my life know how I have felt and I just can’t be that person any more it’s taken its toll big time and now mums gone I can’t hide anymore so I’m feeling vulnerable and I don’t like it xx
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You sound just like me. I masked everything for so long. That is when I had my breakdown, I couldn’t cope with lots of stuff and it all came spilling out. I have leant to accept that I take medication to help me and there is nothing wrong in that.
You are human and you need something to help you. Medication and counselling can work hand in hand. But only you can decide.
If you do decide to take it, please make an appointment with a GP in a couple of weeks.
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I M so annoyed with my brother. I was talking to him about my mom’s medical notes and telling him what they said in the CT report. It is pretty grim. Then I was talking about how desperately ill she was. He then says Sonia (his wife) will be angry. I thought oh, he then said the Amazon drive had parked across her drive and she can’t get on! I thought you are kidding me. I was talking about our mom. He just doesn’t want to hear it, but this is the reality.
I feel so annoyed with him.
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What annoys me the most is they basically prescribed a month’s course and they could of rang me to see how I was getting on with the medication not once have they followed up they have just given a 2nd months worth without hesitation think I’m going to make an appointment on Monday I’ll see how I am over the weekend as I’m not really sure I need them x
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Good plan, make an appointment and talk to them. Be honest and open and talk about your fear of taking them.
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I think I will do as there are a lot of factors putting me off taking them weight gain being one of them I can’t afford health wise to gain any weight they don’t tell you all these things when they prescribe them x
Flippin’ 'eck! Sounds quite insensitive, your brother.
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I think he just can’t cope with hearing it. But he always tells me to offload to him. I said that I think we need to get a solicitor. He was taken a back.
He just lives in a different world to me.
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