Thats what happens as the days and weeks move on , you go from a full house to an empty one, we know life goes on but for us it is like a stand still, we have a new life to begin but how do we do it.
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Yes i agree ppl who was always there the first few weeks take further steps backwards and you look around and theres nobody.all those so calked family and friends soon disappear and you are left behind. Wondering how the hell do you get through it. Xxx
Its like the future is uncertain, like being in limbo,especially once the funeral is past people expect you to move on and get back to your daily prior to the death,my question to them is how do you expect me to do that because if you have an answer to help me please tell me because i sure as hell dont know what to do. I have no focus.
Yes they think it is so simple little do they realise just how hard this is . I wish i had the answers but i am also struggling to make sense of life again xxxx
Its truly awful isnt it. How long since you lost your loved one. Apologies if i have already asked you.
Dont apologise be ause if your out like me nothing stays at the moment. It will be 8 weeks on Sunday. What about you. Xxx
Will be 1 week on thursday, was your partner ill x
Aww bless you . Yes darling he had been in hospital with sephis in April was put on end of life. Came home 6 and half weeks later . Bed bound was home for a week and half went back in with water retention , a week to the day he passed he had heart failure. A week later i lost our little dog Bobby to the same thing. Gra was 75 16 years older than me. What about you. Xxx
Myself and mark had just had our 60th birthdays he was may i was july, mark was on antidepressants for along time ans from day we met he told me about his health issues and private life eventās but that didnt matter. Just goes over and over in my head why he did it, he failed twice before when he was in a dark place and even his sister cant comprehend him doing it now when he was happy here with me and mia we did loose his wee dog in march ans even though he was 14 and ill he saw it as something else being taken away i dont get it and will never understand why ans that is destroying me xx
I have a flatmate, weāre friends so thatās helpful. We donāt spend much time together though as sheās often tired and just stays in her room. But she has been supportive. I also found myself avoiding her a bit for a few weeks as she complains a lot and I couldnāt deal with listening to her. Sheās been a bit brighter the last 2/3 weeks so itās a bit better now.
At least you have some one there and not completely on your own. Iv asked my son to speak with solicitor regarding will as we werent married but it stated i live here to my death then house be sold and shared between my 3 and his 2 kids personally they deserve nothing because i know im hurting but if the son had only took the time to message his dad here and there i wouldnt be arranging his funeral, anyway i would like to know if i feel that id like to move back to town im from which to be fair itās only 2/3 mile down the road if i am able to sell the house and his arrangements in will be carried out once im gone xx
Yeah Iām glad that I have a bit of company. Itās a lot to think about, with the will and the house. I also felt anger at some of the people that could have been more of a support for my partner, he needed it, those close family members who werenāt there for him. Iāve managed to forgive them, seeing how hurt they are. Iāve also been angry at others in my life too, rationally and irrationally, I think itās my mind try to make sense of it. I guess his son will likely been feeling some guilt about this. Thatās the hard bit as once theyāre gone thereās nothing more that can be done. Youāre left with what ifs and if onlyā¦ I wonder if a move might be good for you? As you say itās not far from where you are now so it would be possible to stay in contact with peopleā¦ itās a lot to think about at a difficult time. Xx
Unfortunate you will never get the answers and we all have the what ifs, it only a little word but omg do those what ifs torture us. I am really sorry for the way you lost your darling. I hope one day we all find the peace we deserve. Xxx
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Hi, Ron11,
I think I will decide to do some work before the doom and gloom of winter arrives. Still got a few years work in me only 62 although I was partially retired enjoying life with my lovely wife, now thatās gone may as well work not much else to do.
winter will be my worst and time I will be very sad , just like I am now only worse.
I may take up something indoors to help me like swimming, tai chi.
At the moment I am really annoyed with her for leaving me this way but still and always will love and miss her.
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Hiya Steve ,
I hope you find something to fill those empty hours , I am dreading winter I truly am , I canāt stand the emptiness, the empty house the feeling of not belonging anymore, xxx
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I moved after my 1st husband and thought this was my happy ever after, it will more than likely be a long process and wonder if it will make any difference with it being a short distance from where i am originally from but i would like my son to find out if its possible for me to sell up and buy again and then carry out his wishes once im gone, just so i know. Grief is horrendous and you have to be in our poistions to know what its like , i bloody hate it , hate the pain sadness the emptiness the feeling of not wanting to be here anymore ( i woukdnt do anything i have my kids) xx
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Thank you im.glad i joined so i can chat with others about our stories and how we survive this.
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Hi Jevncute,
I too donāt like my own company for too long,
We are all different in this respect. I am going out with other people sometimes but it just feels I am filling in time. Having been widowed twice and lost my partner six months ago.
Hiya Christine, I lost my husband almost 12 weeks ago. I hate the empty house. I am okish if someone is here but I hate it when they go. I lost my best friend in april she would have been on the phone all the while now my house phone rarely rings. I am so lonely. Its awful. Hugs Jo xxx
Hi, terrible, I am exactly the same, meeting an acquaintance for coffee later. Just hate being in the house alone. My best friend has also passed away. Love and hugs to you too.
What can we do!