I ask the question too why the tears fall. I miss my partner so much and the word you used “irreplaceable” feels so true to me too. Just over three years together and he was simply the best !! I am just so grateful he came into my life and I have so many memories to look back on .
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You and I very similar.
Me n John were just two n half years and they were the best to be honest.
I never really believed when people said they were a perfect two halves until I met him.
I’m scared I’ll forget the memories which is silly but when I feel sad it’s how I think.
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That exactly how I felt about “two perfect halves” Kev just loved me unconditionally, I also can relate to been scared of losing memories…………. we never will as they will always be so very special to us. The sadness I feel is immense 
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Morning @Johnr
Morning All
Be careful out there if any if you are venturing out it’s very icy here this morning.
Hope you have a stress free day
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On my way home from a fantastic break to the German christmas markets.
Early start at 6.45 local time (5.45 uk time)
Home for 3 weeks then Belgium for new year solo again to meet new people. I promised Rob I would continue our love of travel when he became ill and I’mso glad I have kept this promise.
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I hope I get to your stage @Punto . I am also 60 and lost my husband unexpectedly in January. We were always on holiday, have visited many places from Iceland, Brazil, the States , Caribbean and many more. We were about to go to Goa for my 60th just after he passed. I often go to the German Christmas markets, my son lives near Munich.
I did make it to Alicante this year, stayed in a close friends apartment.
I hope I get to be as brave as you, I don’t want my traveling days to be over!
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I dont do long distance just Europe but 1st trip was 6 months after Rob passed. I was a widow at 60 as well. Ive 2 more holidays booked, a house move to a new city to do over the next few weeks but I believe in enjoying the life I have left. I am someone who won’t sit at home thinking about what life should be like as that life isn’t here anylonger so I thinkabout how I can make my future more enjoyable.
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Morning everyone,
Take care.
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Exactly how I feel. My mum lost dad when she was 63 , she is now 81. She moved house and made friends and a life. I am quite independent in that my husband worked on oil rigs for many years, And although sad, I am lucky to have good friends and family and I am trying to make the most not it. Good for you with what you are doing. Hope the movie goes well xxx
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You’re so right Sandra. Like you, I will be moving, but at least it’s least to roughly my hometown. It’s a big step, particularly at my age, but I want to try and like and hopefully enjoy what’s left of my life.
All the best to you.
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Good day up to half hour ago.
I decided I would get ahead and wrap some presents which is a loathsome job for me.
I was searching for bags and came across a lovely silver one thinking ideal for my cousins pressie ( we recycle bags ) and taking the tag off I noticed it was to me from John simply saying
‘ To my Darling ‘ and that was it……floodgates opened.
I’m trying to think it’s Johns way of letting me know he’s around but it hurts like hell…
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I did something similar a couple of days ago Mitzi. Set me off as well 
Mine wasn’t addressed to me, but were tags on bags we used to use for our oldest granddaughters. It was Jackie’s writing that said Nanny & Granddad
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Nightwish1
I hope you are ok?i will be thinking of you tomorrow, i hope you get through the day ok.
Look after yourself.
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Thank you brummy,
A bad wave day, today. I hope you are ok shopping in Chester tomorrow. I know it’s hard for you.
Take care.
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It was 35 weeks today my world ended
I havent been posting but i have been reading everyday… and the posts here really help me. Times i manage to cope with living ,being with family .trying to hide how i really feel ,just how lonely i am without him .the little things ,looking at his chair ..empty. then when the night comes its even worse.im dreading christmas my first one without him. Hope you all take care and cope with this awful feelings
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I understand and know exactly what your going through and it’s terrible lm the same my children are very good and l tried to hide what l was feeling saying lm OK when l wasn’t but today l went to my local supermarket and people was coming on to me saying how are my and sorry l collapsed and they rang my children and lv cried all day
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Oh no .hope your tears have eased a little .friends called my children and it felt the worsed ever. I didnt want them to see me cry .just feel im ment as a mother to wipe their tears not them mine. Even if you dont post ,read here ,can give so much comfort
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Good night all.
It’s 39 weeks for me tomorrow morning so another weepy Saturday ahead, but I’ll get through it as I have done and we all will do.
Someone said to me the other day, ‘keep your pecker up’, so I’ll try.
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I could have written the same words, San8. Ian died on April 7, here at home, after being ill for a long while. We’d been together for 55 years. I thought I was managing a bit better, but then floods of tears come from nowhere. People have fallen away now. People that I never thought would do, really. I try and put a brave face on, for my family, because they’ve lost their dad and grandad, and I don’t want to seem needy. I just want to stay here in the house, not going anywhere at all. It’s my safe place. I don’t post much on here, but I read the comments regularly. Thank goodness for this site. Xx
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