It’s a bit stormy here so going to bed early. I have to be on the road to Wales around 8 so need the sleep.
Have a good night and take care through this storm. 
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Take good care on your travels John
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Its really windy up here in north wales tonight btw
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Night night everyone x
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Morning everyone,
Safe journey johnr.
Take care everyone.
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Good Morning All
Bit blustery here this morning so crawled back in bed with coffee.
Feeling sad but not lonely but wishing John was here with me.
Hope you @Johnr enjoy your new home search..
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Morning everyone,
the weather seems to be calmer today 
I hope the weather is better for you as well
Take care x
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Lighter that yesterday but still raining bad
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Oh dear, I hope you can keep warm and dry
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Today I am feeling really low sad lonely without my beautiful wife I have never felt so down and sad heartbroken in all my life I feel I am getting really angry about cpls families and Christmas I know it’s not there fault but everything just seems to be in your face now I know that’s not the case but I cant stop thinking what I am missing in my life I thought I have mastered life and my life was so complete with my beautiful wife it was allways just the 2 off us and now it’s only me everyday is a battle it is so hard to do the tears never stop my thoughts never stop the trumma is awful I have lots of memories all good but every memory or thought the tears come and I cant stop it I am going to be alone on Christmas and I am struggling that I can’t spend it with my beautiful wife why did this have to happen I ask myself every day I just wish I could be with my wife now I hate this loneliness without her every thing is just so much harder I am sorry if I am going on but I am truly really struggling I understand we are all in the same boat
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@Love01
I’m so very sorry you’re feeling very low. It’s a horrible feeling and one that just doesn’t go away until it wants to.
I was like that over the weekend and felt so very sad. Memories are meant to make us happy and most of the time they do but just some days they’re too much to bear.
I actually love seeing couples happy together. I feel such happiness for them and hope they have as much as what me n John had and if they have that then they’re the luckiest people.
Missing someone you love is never ending simply because they were our other half but we just have to carry on in their memory even though it’s a tough road there’s absolutely nothing we can do about it except try.
I’m sure we are all going to post on here over the Xmas period which might help a little and probably a lot if people just won’t get out of bed.
If I didn’t have family I know that’s what I’d do but I’m one of the lucky ones to have family n friends but nothing makes up for John and never will.
I really hope things improve at least tiny bit for you. Just keep on posting.
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Yes, my lovely partner and I lived apart, but only a few miles. But I miss him being there, calling round at mine, me calling round at his. Big hole left. 3 weeks 2 days so far.
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Good afternoon all.
Just about to view the third property.
First was ok but absolutely awful to get to. The lane was only just over the width of the car. I tripped over the first of half a dozen steps, which was an omen, so a definite NO
The second was superb in all aspects. The location was definitely ‘Waitrose’ country according to my lovely companion.
Waiting for the last today and it’s not looking good so far
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I am so sorry you are feeling really low.
I understand what you mean especially about couples.
They now stand out don’t they.
Hopefully, in time happy memories will not bring so many tears.
That is my hope.
I am sure that many of us will post here over Christmas and, although nowhere near the days of being with our loved one, it could provide a tiny bit of comfort.
Take care x
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I’m so sorry and I feel your every word and emotion. I too don’t know how I’m going to get through Christmas, lost my partner 10 weeks ago. I was a bit better last week, less anxious, but this is a really bad week. I’m crying most of the time as the memories of our life together race around my head. I’m going to my sister’s but I feel I will just put everyone on a downer. It is so hard to smile when your heart is broken. Everyone on here understands.
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Love01
I am so sorry you are feeling really low, i know exactly what you mean.every day i find a struggle, i go to work , come back to an empty house and burst into tears, i seem to be crying as much now as when my dear wife passed in february.Its like a never ending nightmare, so much worry and responsibility too.My dear wife was so loving, caring , kind and gentle, she was my world, my everything.All purpose has gone for me now, its just sadness, loneliness and emptyness.my dear wife so suddenly taken from me.Its broken my heart.I know what you mean about christmas, as you say everything seems to be in your face now, its all adverts, commercialism etc.It really hurts when you are on your own and everywher you look its parties, celebrations, bingefests.I must sound like the Grinch/scrooge but christmas is a non event for me now.I will remember the true meaning of christmas with the birth of Jesus and i will think of my dear lovely wife as i do every moment of the day and night.i agree with you about the memories we had lovely happy times but the memories bring the tears knowing we will never make new memories.I wish i could be with my dear wife, i say this to her every day and night but im still here,still surviving somehow and existing not living a life that i knew and loved with my dear wife.We have to get through this the best we can but its all so hard and painful.Take care
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Three weeks is so very soon and raw for you.
I was a complete wreck for the first few months and never want to feel like that ever again.
It’s got a bit easier but I still mask the pain and terrible loss I feel from other people.
I didn’t live with my partner either but it was something we were talking about.
I used to love driving to his house an hour away and was so excited to see him and he was the same coming to me. We were usually together four days/nights a week then I had childminding to do n school pick ups so we had days apart.
Today I’ve been getting Xmas stuff ready. I don’t want to put the tree up but I have to for my grandkids. As i was looking through them I realised he’d packed all the things we’d bought for his house in my boxes, reminders of Xmas at his beautiful home.
Tears flowed and I feel so very sad he’s not here. I loved him so much and always will.
Life can be so tough sometimes.
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Good night all
One out of three properties today is a definite yes so will put an offer in after the viewing of a fourth tomorrow
Managed to visit Jackie this afternoon as well
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Nice to hear your house hunting is going well. Good luck with your offer!
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Night night everyone x
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