Well done for getting the tops cleared.My 90 yr old dad was sooooo, clean, tidy & organised.
I find it hard to start the day as I feel weepy and miss dad so much.Just feel lost without him.I felt he was my building block - my foundation.
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So sorry to hear about your husband. Dad & I were planning his Great Grandson’s 1st birthday but the NHS took his life.
I can understand how much it touched you collecting your husband’s weddfing ring.Dending you lots of hugs.
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Good Morning Everyone.
A bit miserable outside and cold so heating on.
Hope your eye is getting better @Johnr.
Is anyone trying to get out this New Years Eve.
I’m having dinner at my cousins house and we have all decided to dress up for it.
Three of us are bereaved so we understand each other and if we want to cry we will and will not feel awkward.
I will be glad to see the back of 2025 but I’ll never forget it
Probably the worst year ever…
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That sounds like a good plan for a strange old night. I’m seriously thinking of just staying at home on my own and trying to ignore the fact it’s New Year’s Eve as much as possible. Not to wallow, and I could definitely be with family or friends if I wanted, but anyone who hasn’t been through this themselves can’t fully understand how crippling it feels. You are ‘lucky’ to be with people who know 
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Morning Mitzi. It’s slowly getting better. Driving home later so hopefully I’ll be able to see 
New Year’s Eve was never a big thing for me and Jackie so I’ll be at home and in bed way before midnight
Anyway you have a great night at your cousins
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I am not a fan of New Year’s Eve.
We had non New Year’s Eve evenings.
So I will be at home, food ( probably snacks), wine, tv (things I didn’t watch over Christmas), books if preferred.
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Morning everyone,
weather much the same as yesterday.
Nothing planned for today as I got some shopping yesterday.
Have the best day possible.
Take care x
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Same here. Me and Ray were never fans of NYE, so it will be bed for me before midnight too. I can’t even imagine going into a New Year without him
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I’m back to work today and tomorrow, and feeling much better. Work helps me focus on something else and do something useful. I don’t have any plans for NYE. My friend is trying to drag me to the pub, but most likely I will stay at home with my dogs, one of them is terrified of fireworks, so I have always stayed home on that day.
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Yes the fireworks are so loud.
Do what you want to do x
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I have been having a really bad time over the christmas holidays and I am.not looking forward to the new year my wife and I never bothered about it we just went to bed and watch tv in bed if we where awake at the bells we would just wish each other a happy new year but I am not looking forward to another year tbh I am struggling so much all I have been doing is sobbing away I went back to work today but I also found it hard it never distracted me atall all I do is keep thinking about my wife I wish I could allso stop thinking about the trumma but is so hard I love her so so much and I am finding it hard I do get counselling but it’s been nearly 4 weeks now since I ha e seen him I really dont know what I am.supose to be doing I don’t e en know who I am I really wish I could just be with my beautiful wife
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Love o1, I understand you completely, it’s just heartbreaking being on our own. I miss my dear husband so much, we can only hope and pray that life can get easier for us, like you we were there for each other. This is the first Christmas I’ve ever been on my own, New year I’ll be on my own again. Loneliness is just soul destroying. Please believe me you are in my thoughts and everyone else who’s so alone.
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Hello @Love01,
I’m so sorry to hear how you’re feeling. I know others are sharing their thoughts and offering support, but I also wanted to share some information as you mention going back to work.
It may be helpful to check whether your employer offers an Employee Assistance Programme and what help you might be entitled to under this scheme which may include counselling support.
You can also read our information about going back to work after bereavement and our information which may be helpful to share with your manager.
I hope you’re finding the community a good support - please keep reaching out.
Take good care,
Naoise
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Thank you I am just really really struggling I lost my wife 32 weeks ago very suddenly and being alone in our forever home is really hard it is full of memories and dreams we where allways together we never needed anyone we where happy in our own bubble I just cant cope to go through a new year everyday is so so hard every memory and every dream we had is hurting so so much I cry constantly at our memories even through they are all good but I am hurting to much I just really really miss her I do understand everyone is hurting that is on this site to I hate this emptiness and loneliness I just want my wife so much
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I really understand how you feel about your home now. My partner passed away suddenly 3 months ago. I feel as if I m in a nightmare. He worked really hard so we could have a nice house, loved his garden and his car but was taken at age 66, just so sad. The house is just bricks and mortar now, empty and lonely. Everything seems to be breaking down as he dealt with tech and other maintenance issues. I’m going to have to take on a gardner as I can’t manage the garden myself, too arthritic. He made life worth living and I am so lost. I really understand your pain.
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I am exactly the same we bought our forever home done alot of work to it we where working on the garden when my wife passed so suddenly while we went away for our wedding anniversary I have things still lying about that my wife had last put down I cannot touch anything I ca t even go in the cupboards or freezer as it hurts to much i remember going shopping together and getting the food that was for both of us I know it sounds silly but I cant and won’t touch anything I try to keep as much close to me because I need to feel close to her trying desperately to keep the connection I sleep on my wifes side of the bed with all her jewellery she had on that day she passed and her glasses the house was a very happy home but now it is so sad empty and lonely I miss my beautiful wife so much I wish I could be with her
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I came home from our daughters today after a lovely Christmas and have done nothing but cry since I got back, it gets harder and harder to come back to an empty house.
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All this resonates with me SO much. The first few days at home after Mark died were completely disorientating. His presence is everywhere I look, every room, every cupboard, every drawer, in the garden, in the garage. He was a real techy person and our home runs the way it does because of him. I haven’t a clue, and know there are going to be so many times ahead when I don’t know what to do.
At first, I didn’t really want to be in our home. It seemed pointless on my own. Now I’m trying to remember that it was our haven and that Mark worked so hard to make it lovely for me.
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It doesn’t sound silly at all 
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