Hope all goes well with the viewings ,hopefully in time you son will understand your reasons for wanting to move 
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Sending you a virtual
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Helen39
the last line of your post is so true,i think facing death does scare people.its a srt of taboo subject to many people but it is something we will all have to face eventually.One things for certain we dont get off earth alive.Its so true about people dissapearing.At my dear wifes funeral it was all we will keep in touch etc, now over 12 months on nothing.Is it people just dont know how to approach us?Is it they are frigtened of catching the dreaded “grief disease”?I have very little family, no friends, just cousins.i have to fight this battle alone no one can do this only me.to be honest the best support has been from this dear website and all the kind understanding people on here.as many of us have said unless someone has experienced the loss of their dear loved ones no one really understands.Some people expect us to “move on” or Time Heals” but its not like that i find.Grief has no timeline attatched to it and no direction.it can hit us time and again, anytime, anywhere.we are all different as human beings and some of us can manage things better than others.Sometimes we have to be patient with ourselves take things step by step, moment by moment.We can only try our best thats all we can do.Take care.
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Thank you everyone. I hope this new feeling of feeling like I’m shaking passes soon. Now to send a nasty email to my utility company. Who knew it would be such a battle to change the name of ownership of solar panels! This is the 5th agreement I’ve signed and returned. They have no trouble sending me the bills, grrrr.
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i hope you have success with your utility company.i find trying to get through to my utility companies so frustrating.navigating menus, speaking to robots etc.i tried two avenues, one i was completely silent, the second i said “i want to speak to a person”, the latter worked, i spoke to a human.As you say they have no trouble sending bills.
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I get the shaking like every nerve in my body is going, its just anxiety stress, and we have a lot of that, I think I’m giving up going to bed to sleep just going to sit up all night watching TV I might doze off then, what a horrible life at the moment
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@Peg2 thinking of you
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Morning All
Not the best nights sleep but never mind. It’s dry out at the moment at least.
Whatever your Thursday holds I send virtual hugs as we all need to know people are thinking of us 
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Good morning everyone
Still raining here unfortunately but hopefully it will stop soon
Wishing you all a lovely day
Tom
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2 hours sleep , just had a walk with a friend, going bank then no idea what to do to pass the time,lots of jobs but no heart to do them, I better chear up to make my life better if possible.
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Hi spike What I did from day one was lift weights and walk until I couldn’t. If it killed me I didn’t care and the pain I was feeling I took out on my body and although I still don’t sleep well I’m sure it helped.
Wishing you all the best
Tom
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So it doesn’t seem such a mountain to climb for you, only try to do one small task a day and if you can’t don’t beat yourself up about it you can always try again the next day.
Remember take small steps it’s a new life none of us wanted but we get through as best we can.
Look after yourself
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Morning Everyone
It’s nice and sunny 
here this morning, not sure if it will last all day. I am going swimming this morning. I also have to sort renew the house insurance . It’s something my husband used to do .
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Terrible night’s sleep for me too. Meeting a friend for lunch, hope I manage to stay awake 
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Morning, I do hope you manage to have a lovely lunch with your friend. Big hugs
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I have no trouble keeping awake,wish I could face going out for lunch but not how I feel,for me it seems wrong for me to try to be happy sounds daft I know, one day if I make it through I’ll be out and about again.the bank for me,get wood for burner, shopping call sons anything to get out but don’t enjoy it but better than sitting in on own,
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Dear Peg
I think I’m getting a bit of a reputation for falling asleep. The worst was front row of the grandchildren s Nativity.
Have a good day everyone x
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That made me smile Helen!
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Spike, so sorry for your loss.
Be kind to yourself by yes trying to do something even for short times but don’t feel guilty for being tired, really down or lost.
Sending a big hug.
We are all here for you and we understand x
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Good morning everyone I to never had a gogood night I have only just managed to drag myself out of bed I am late for work I am really really struggling and so full off sadness I feel I am getting worse the shear sadness that comes over me and the tears I just put my work jumper on this morning and smell my wifes perfume that I sprayed on my wrists a few days ago I have a job today and it’s quite a long drive so I am going to take my wife with me I keep her save in my van I have a box with some padding in it so I sit her urn in it with her phone and I put the seat belt round it she loved coming out with me she would sit and watch out the window and say to me that’s nice we would look at different things together or sometimes fall asleep everything I do from day to day is constantly reminders of my wife and I together going places together we did everything together and discuss everything she would even ask the if that’s OK if she had done something I am just really really missing her the change in the weather is not helping me I keep thinking back this time last year we did this or that but we where getting the garden sorted together it’s not finished yet but I have to try get it finished but it’s really hard I step out to the garden and I just get really overwhelmed I just cant believe that she has gone I am just so lost scared frightened all the time I come home from work and I just lock myself away in my room I have had so meny meltdowns and I say is they something wrong with me I don’t have anyone that could look in on me I don’t recognise myself anymore I just wish I could just be with my wife so so much I don’t like this cruel life without my beautiful wife I know I am not the only one that has lost our loved ones we never asked for this horrible journey but somehow we got dealt it take care everyone
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