Morning All.
@Sherbet10
Hope your counselling goes well. Let me know how you get on.
@brummy
Thinking of you today. I can only hope you get through as best as you can but everyone on here will be mentally helping you along..
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I really hope it goes well for you today
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Thinking of everyone going through a difficult day.
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I hope it goes well, im still waiting, having an emotional and feeling lost day today, take care x
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Thinking of you today brummy, hope you are ok, take care, sending hugs x
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I know the song but couldn’t listen to it at the moment. It would finish me off completely just too sad. Everything you’ve written describes how I feel. I’m just under 5 months after my partner’s sudden death. He was 66, had so much to look forward to. I hope you find peace eventually.
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Heartofgold, i fully understand how your feeling as im exactly the same as you, we moved to our forever home, my husband worked so hard on the garden to get it ready for us to enjoy, we were soul mates, lovers and best friends, we loved each other so much, always worked together and did everything together, we didn’t need anyone else we were so happy just us…. And now so suddenly and unexpectedly im on my own , lost, lonely and just dont know what to do 
take care and sending hugs to everyone on this awful journey 
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Thank you everyone for your messages of support re counselling. I have just come off the phone talking to the counsellor. They just let you talk about how you are feeling. It’s a course of 6 weeks. Feeling a bit emotional drained .
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Brummy,
I hope you are ok and managed to get through the day.
Take care
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Mitzi1
Thank you so much for thinking of me today and to everyone on here too.It means a lot to me.Its been a very hard day.i knew this day was approaching but nothing can really prepare you for it when it arrives.I tried to think of happy memories but so often overiden by sadness of that awful day.I am so grateful forthis site and everyones kindness and understanding.Today i was thinking of the people at my dear wifesfuneral and how many would remember.Apart from my wifes sister and a cousin of my late brother in law-noone.Its not so much that i wanted people to think of me , it was to think of my dear wife.I often walk around the churchyard looking at the headstones thinking i wonder how many are still remembered.They were all living people at one time and the only certainty of life on this earth is we wont get off it alive.
Thank you Mitzi1 and everyone too.It means a lot to me.Take care.
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Babycake
Thank you for thinking of me today.Its been a very hard day.I have tried to think of happy memories but they are often overwhelmed with sadness of that awful day that changed my life and myself for ever.I knew this day was approaching but nothing can prepare you for these sort of “anniversary” days when they hit you.I hope you are ok?sending hugs to you too,take carex
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Nightwish1
Thank you for thinking of me today.It means a lot to me.It was a very hard day.i took some dafodils to my dear wifes grave and lit a candle in the village church for my wife.I tried to think of the happy memories, like our wedding day and the day i first met her but i have had so many tears today.I knew this day was approaching but nothing can prepare you for these “anniversary” type days.
I do hope you are ok?
Take care.
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Brummy, all days are hard but especially days like today for you im pleased you have got through we have memories to think of but like you say, they come with sadness too its so hard, it does change you definitely, we just wasn’t expecting this, take care, sending hugs x
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Take care Brummy, this path we’re on is so cruel. The tears and heartache for our special beautiful people is neverending.
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Can’t seem to sleep tonight, so having a couple of biscuits and a glass of orange juice. Probably all wrong to be doing but never mind. 
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Up early after hardly any sleep.
My car is having an MoT and service this morning so hopefully rain will hold off as I need to walk 2 miles back home and then 2 miles back to garage when it’s ready.
Anyway, good morning all
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Pity it wasn’t last week when I was there I could have done the pick up/collection.
It’s 50 weeks for me today so like you I hardly slept last night. I have lots on my mind.
In two weeks it will be a year I can’t believe it. At times it feels like a lifetime ago then it seems like only yesterday 
It’s raining here so quite apt really. My friend said she will come to see me this afternoon so this will give me a reason to get up which is good.
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Good Morning
@Johnr
@Heartbroken12
I like you both didn’t sleep well last night I looked at the time after tossing n turning and it was 2.30 then at 7am the cat jumped on the bed ready for his breakfast.
It’s definitely to do with our first year of the dreadful day we lost our loved ones.
It’s the 6th for me and I will certainly be covering up under the duvet n it’ll be a case of
‘ leave me alone’ but then again I will drive to Ribchester and lay some roses and sit and ponder.
That thought has now turned the waterworks on..
What a bag of sh..e this life has turned out to be..
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