It must have been really difficult going to the hospital on your own. I do hope everything will be alright for you . Ramble away if you need to it’s better than bottling it all up . I have walked my dog many times with tears flowing down my face.It doesn’t really matter if someone sees you crying.You never know they might ask you if they can help you. I don’t like the weekends anymore for the Same reason. It’s the time we would spend our time together. Now it’s just me and my dog . Although today I have been shopping with my daughter in law & Grandchildren . Which helped broke my day up
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Hi brummy,
I will be thinking about you tomorrow. I hope you’re vist to Shropshire, went ok and has not upset you too much.
Take care.
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That’s so sweet made me grin . Thank you.
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Goodnight John sleep well
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Hi Nightwish1
Thank you.Its been a hard day the day was quite cold then the emotion of visiting my mum and dads grave.I nearly got on the wrong train too, they changed the platforms.to be honest my head is all over the place.All these “anniversary” days aproaching.My dear wifes funeral will be a year on wednesdy, my dads birthday 12th march the day after.Thank you for your kindness and understanding.
I hope you managed today ok.
Take care.
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Thinking of you John, sending hugs xx
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Sending big hugs 
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Thinking of you John.
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Brummy
Thinking of you.
All these anniversary dates are so hard and so many.
I went to the cemetery yesterday where my mum,dad, brother and Keith my husband are buried.
It is so hard to do it alone now.
It gives me some comfort that they are all resting in peace and no more pain. Sadly I now carry the pain of them not being with me.
Take care.
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Thinking of you today John 
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Thinking of both of you today
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Thinking of you today johnr. Tears yes, but try and remember good memories as well.
Take care.
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Good Morning Everyone
Special thoughts to
@Johnr and @MichelleO on this day. We all get through our anniversary dates but not without tears and our wonderful memories create more of them but we come out the other side.
There are millions of us out there all suffering the same feelings of loss and anger and wretchedness but we are lucky in the fact that we, as total strangers, have each other on here and it helps so very much.
I hope your family and friends rally round but if not maybe they’re going through their own grief in their own way.
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My son’s family visited yesterday and our 8 year old granddaughter did a version of the drawing I did the other day.
She was ‘impressed’ with my masterpiece 
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Lovely pictures, your granddaughter has done a really good drawing.
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Oh I’m so sorry. I can feel your anguish in your words. I’m much like that again at five months after my partner’s sudden death. Last month I was a bit more settled but as the days have lengthened the realisation that we’ll never sit out in our garden together again has hit home. The garden is giving me so much anxiety as I ve had to employ a gardener for the heavy work, plus I couldn’t get the power tools to work. My partner kept it really well and I feel I’ll be letting him down if it doesn’t look nice. Like yourself I’m struggling . To be honest I just want to be with him now, as I cannot see a future without loneliness. Do you have anyone who can support you at the moment? Sometimes just talking to someone can help for a short time. I lost my mum 23 years ago and the grief was really intense but I had my partner and family for support. This time I just cannot get any respite. I’m so sorry you feel like this too, it’s never ending.
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