How’s your Day Going Today?

I’ve done them and intend posting them all together tomorrow in case I forget them or they get lost while I pack😀 I have put ‘open on’ dates so they know, especially as one of them isn’t for a few weeks.

I have signed them all as John & Jackie, as she used to. As far as I’m concerned we are still an item and always will be. If anyone gets upset at me putting her name on, I’ll just remind them that I get upset at leaving her off :heart:

Probably next year, I’ll do them on Moonpig. More costly but easier

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Not sure what’s on the horizon today. Didn’t sleep well at all last night, but never mind.

Going to walk down the shop to get some stamps to post the cards I did yesterday.

After that, bring it on.

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Hope it’s a good day for you John. Every new day is like an experiment. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t.

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It is Jim. Came close to a few sniffles ten minutes ago. Now listening to Gregorian chants by Benedictine Monks, very pleasant

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Good morning John
I am going to walk into town today, it’s about six miles, so I will get an Uber home.

It’s sunny here, it looks pretty outside.

It’s market day in town, haven’t been since Mark passed.

Have a good day, you may need a nap, as you didn’t sleep well.

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Morning Glenys.
That’s a long walk. Is it all on roads or through country? Either way, keep safe.

I used to do 5 or 6 miles regularly until Jackie got worse. Now trying to build up strength again so keeping to around a mild and half until I go on holiday in a week.

Yes I can see me napping later.

Have a good one

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Good morning, everyone. I’m just so glad I found this site. I don’t feel quite so isolated, knowing that the same feelings of absolute desolation and despair are felt by others, too.
Like you were saying, John, missing out your wife’s name on cards isn’t easy at all. Those who love you will understand, seeing her name alongside yours and if they don’t….well, it doesn’t matter, does it?
I’ve got a couple of family birthdays this week. Having to just write ‘ Love from Grandma’ to my lovely 35-yr-old granddaughter and ‘Love from Great-Grandma’ to my 15-yr-old great-grandson doesn’t seem right at all. Then, I remember that they loved him, too.
I had to go and buy a new iPad yesterday. Lots of the older messages are now showing up on the Messenger part and I’m trying not to look at them because many of them are from me to family and vice-versa discussing how Ian was, eg, had the nurse been in, had he eaten anything today, just the usual things, but I’m trying not to see them. They’ll disappear, eventually, no doubt. I’m not very good with technology so I don’t want to try and erase them.
Try and have a gentle day. Sending warm thoughts to you all.

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Exactly. No matter what happens in the time I have left, Jackie will always be a major part of my life. I loved her for the last 60 years of her life and will still love her until my dying day. :heart:

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Sun’s out so going to cut grass and maybe trim some bushes

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Grass cut and two bushes trimmed, despite the calls from Jackie telling me I’m cutting them all wrong :face_with_hand_over_mouth:

@Johnr
Such a lovely photo of you and your beautiful Jackie on your wedding day. You both look so happy. It makes me smile, but sad at the same time… why can’t we just stay in that state of happiness forever? I wish we could “freeze-frame” those times. I think Jackie would be very proud of you John. Take care xx

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We were, then life took over. :cry:

Like many, bringing up families takes a toll on relationships. We perhaps took each other for granted at times and happiness of 1967 slipped away a bit. Not sure if we ever got back to those days, but who does? :cry:

I really hope she’s proud of me now :broken_heart:

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I so desperately want her back to tell her all the things I didn’t get to do.
To hold her in my arms again
To have a little tiff
To FaceTime our grandchildren together and the list could go on and on.

Sadly it’ll never happen :broken_heart::broken_heart::broken_heart:

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@Johnr
Of course she will be proud of you. She loved you and you loved her.
Life changes over years and at least you stayed together through thick n thin.
Me n my ex hubby divorced back in the mid 90s but we are the best of friends…
If that hadn’t happened I would never have met my soulmate 20 years plus later n learned what true love felt like…I have no idea what we would’ve been like if we’d had the time you had together…
Always a reason for everything…

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Sorry just having a bit of a weepy day again. :cry:

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@Johnr
John don’t ever be sorry, we all have our weapy days and they’re bloody awful

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@Johnr
I’m extremely sentimental, John. So I’m always contemplating, why we get old (if we’re lucky)… why we get sick… why we have to experience the heartache of losing our beloved soulmates. What is this life actually all about? I don’t have any of the answers though. I didn’t have to think too much about this when I was blissfully happy with the love of my life… before terminal cancer… I wish we could just stay happy with our special people :pensive: 1967 is the year I was born.

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I know. :broken_heart:

I’ve just been packing or repacking my stuff for my week holiday on the 8th June. Got my boots out and found I hadn’t cleaned them properly from the last time I used them, which would have been 2011 :face_with_open_eyes_and_hand_over_mouth:

Still mud caked on the bottoms so I scraped it off. They’re still in good condition though, so should definitely last a week in Snowdonia. Packed them in car, so I won’t forget them.

Jackie would be laughing her head off at me for packing early, as I always did. She would leave hers till the day before and never forgot anything. I usually did

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None of us have the answers :slightly_frowning_face:

What is concerning me is that I am not someone who likes living on their own. I have found since Jackie passed, I get too lonely, even if I attempt to go out. If I go out I still come home to an empty house.

I am going to have to come to terms with this or find an alternative.

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@Johnr
Is that your boot…???
How clean is that…mine is a complete state with bags n receipts all over it…I hate cleaning my car and John used to sort it out for me, putting bags inside of bags…His was a worst state than mine though.:rofl::joy:

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